I read a lot, so I have an idea what good writing should be like.

And it's in a different universe from the **** I churn out. There's something satisfying about getting words on the page and wrestling to get a story done. I enjoy it, but realize I'm really ****ing awful.

This used to depress me. So did hearing really good music and knowing I'd never come close to matching it.

Now it actually calms me down. I like the idea of being around to appreciate the brilliant work people have done. Realising I fall way short makes life easier.

I feel the same way about ****ing. It's more enjoyable to take it than to be the one doing the ****ing in my opinion.

why are you trying to write stories. do the dishes

I just can't quite commit enough effort to writing. I don't want to go back and make the ****ty bits better. Hence NaNoWriMo is for me. Quantity over quality. I'm going to do it this year, and how.

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Originally Posted by LaBellaVita
The last **** I saw, was so ****ing ugly it literally sent me into a depression. I became suicidal for a week.

actualy [sic] I have quite a blessed life if I'm honest. I have many people to love, hate few and have few money problem's [sic].... What more does a person need? Oh yeah and I have some kind of humbleness unlike you of course ^_^ ~ CarefulCarpenter

i go back too much, polishing sentences, so don't progress fast enough, then get bored. though i'm often happy(ish) with what i write.

i seem to be keeping it going currently, though at a snail's pace.

How about just plain write and not give a **** whether or not it's good enough in comparison to things you appreciate. You'll eventually get better, and if it's for your own personal reasons, then it really doesn't even matter if it's good or not.

td;lr write erotica and put it on nifty under a psuedonym.