Squaremy was the first fag I had a huge crush on. I did some pretty gay shit back in the day, like playing "Black" from the first Pearl Jam album and weeping because Squaremy and I couldn't be together. I was totally obsessed with him.
Here's the most Sean Young thing that happened, it's so lame. I was in the chat room talking to Bloodykendoll about how great Squaremy is and how we were going to be together. Bloodykendoll expressed some interest in Square and I got a little jealous, cuz I knew Squaremy was into the waify rough trade deal.
So I logged out, waited a bit and reentered under the name Squaremy. Sure enough BKD started talking to me and said he'd heard all about me. I acted all "do i know you?", told him to fuck off and that I wasn't interested, hopefully alienating him for good.
The point is, now I wouldn't care if Squaremy fucked BKD or anybody else.
I'm over him and haven't really thought about him in a few years. And when I do, it's never emotional like before. It's more about wondering what the sex would have been like.
But I like the idea of something not working, suffering, and then it working out years later when the stakes are way lower.
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