i have a fear i will never figure out what i should be doing with my life.

is that a legit fear. i know that commonly we have this fear at early 20s. but i am mentally 10 years behind.

a slow painful death
or
completely losing it, never coming back

Maggots The thought of them makes my stomach turn. I fear that I will get a bot fly maggot growing in my skin. I made this fear worse by watching all these videos of bot flies being extracted because for some reason I still find it all hilarious. Then again I have now had three nightmares now of maggots in my skin.

I also fear having a blood clot, stroke, heart attack.

&&& someone I love killing themselves, or me not killing myself in time before dementia or some old people **** happens and I get stuck in a home or worse.

being killed in a snuff movie.

This is weird. I like that.