Originally Posted by Seventeen
when i got sober just over a year ago, i thought i could be a positive example to others here who might be struggling with alcohol or drugs. i have to say this is a difficult place to be a sober man trying to live his life by spiritual principles. i'm certainly not a saint. something about the environment is triggering - i find myself being as judgmental of others as they are of me. and i hate that. i dont want to live my life like that any more. being snarky and *****y to people does nothing for my cause or yours.
this isn't an "i'm leaving" thread. just observations i wanted to share and maybe others want to discuss what i've mentioned. but, if you don't see me around very much, just know that my life is probably going pretty good as long as i'm not posting here. i wanted to share this because i want to bring honesty into every aspect of my life, and i haven't really done this with kr
very much. so there you have it. 17's feelings.
i do worry this might sound condescending. i don't mean it to be. you guys truly have a special place in my heart and i love the collective soul of kr
. (ugh i hate that i just referenced a 90's alt rock band but you know what i mean).
Seventeen, my dear friend, it sounds like you are growing and maturing as a person. I have seen some picture of you on here, taken a long time ago, and you look like the sweetest child.
When I met you, there you were, a man. A grown up, mature human being, who commanded respect from every room you walked into. You are a white male, of course, but aside from that blight, you were the blackest, most mexican/asian person I have ever met.
I think it's natural to move onto new things, different things. It would be strange if this place elicited the same things as it did all those years ago. Back then, you probably drank **** from an aluminium can. Now you are drinking fine filtered mineral water scented with rare flowers that blossom once every ten years on the side of a ten thousand feet Japanese mountain.
Times, they are a changing. I appreciate, and I am sure kr
does to, that you ever come here to post how you feel about this important issue.
May god bless you, dear sweet man. You are an angel. Too good for this place, as it is now, infested with the stench of white, translucent even, males.