i wish i could afford even malt liquor right now.
but, nope!
aaron has to spend his money on things like providing a new home for himself! buying curtains! buying a futon because it's always been my dream to have more than one piece of furniture at a time!
i also spend my money on things like: repairing my second flat tire in as many weeks, paying that pesky electricity bill, giving my doctor his fair share for services rendered, stocking my fridge with fresh fruits and vegetables.
if only.
if only. i could have one more night. of decadent
kr boozing. on whatever drops of ether would my way come. if only.
STOP THIS MADNESS! i need booze to survive!! do you hear me!?! you do not. i am not heard. and i am sober. to be unheard is to be sober. and i'm done kidding myself that a caffeine high is as good as, if not better, than a good night of binge drinking. with god as my witness: i shall never go sober again! or, at the very least, i will provide myself just one more night of drunken
kr'ing! it shall come at the dusking of summer as i have much planned for myself up until that point. but i shall return!
kr! drunk! and triumphant!
if only.
if only.