is that there is no garuntee that I will be attending my funeral. I have major funeral fantasy syndrome, it's possibly the most important 'all about me' day that will ever exist. How people feel when you die in my opinion reflects who you are in life.

I am actaully in the middle of writing a playlist of the songs I want playing depending on the circumstance of my death. I don't think I'm gonna live to be old, I don't know why, but that's totally ok.

I want to be cremated and my ashes to be made into a firework and after the ceremony I want to be lit and shot up into the sky surrounded by pretty colours and one mighty big BANG.

Then I want everyone to get wasted and have the best time ever.

As I'm not gonna have kids, my money will go to those closest to me, and an all expensed paid outragous party!

But I'm really pissed I may not be able to attend.

Has anyone else thought about this?

all the time.
Working in a funeral house/morgue now, it makes me sad to see how ordinary all the funerals are... oh and I hate it when they decide to expose people. Last weekend as an office clerk, I was assisting a funeral of this man, he had a very large family, he died from cancer. in the laboratory they were trying to embelish him because he was going to be exposed. he was bones&skin and white&veins, it was HORRIBLE...it made me completely lifedepressed.
I wanna have a grave, but I don't want my body burried. I don't want my ashes burried either because that would be sad...
I don't want all the people I've known there, but I want the people I actually liked. I want something spectacular, I worry more about that than marriage...I was never a "plan the mariage" person.

meaty mel!

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this is regarding the rep I got...it wont let me rep you back this long so here it is:

oh just so you know it's a very part time job. Im the secretary but I get to see dead people after autopsies if i want, and because i think its interesting i do. and also because it's something that always intrigued me in a very morbid scary way. I am scared shitless of death, I see this as a sort of "fear therapy" seriously. So I basically deal with files, photoshop their pix for the necrology section, assist visits to the salon. and when I say assist, I basically sit at this huge desk in a huge gorgeous chair like Mr.Burns and am there just in case someone needs something or for their donations to the charities...
It's really not in my field actually, I'm a full time student and this is a very unexpected job from me. I'm really the last person you'd expect to work in such a place.

yuss
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