i'm sorry.

a school friend committed suicide a few years back and it really shook me up. i had seen him a few months earlier at a sonic youth gig and he was tanked beyond repair. in fact everytime i ran into him he was loaded.
the family had a private funeral as they were too sad to have a ton of people around. some of his friends had their own memorial but i chose not to attend. i kinda regret it now.

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that's sad about your friend. not a very long life lived at all.
there was this girl from my school who i just found out died of a brain tumour when she was in her late teens. she was a total monsterchild though, and i thought it was more comical than sad. if only cancer were less indiscriminate.
i think a card would be a thoughtful & appreciated gesture.

sorry to hear about your friend as well - it must have been extra hard for you having known him recently before it happened. It's weird, because not having seen him for so many years, to me it's like that 13 year old kid died.

The whole thing seems so screwed up, and I'm a lot more down about it than I thought I would be. Maybe I'm just thinking that it could have easily been me instead?

brain tumours really scare me for some reason (I mean moreso than other cancers) - it seems like they're becoming more prevalent.