I feel really stupid. Like what did i do to cause/bring this on? I don't like to hurt another person, but FUCK!! I broke up with him in July, he popped out of the woodwork two weeks ago, I was nice to him, (as in saying "No, I don't hate you...") then Thursday, he got scarier, so I told him that "NO! I AM NOT COMING BACK TO YOU EVER! PLEASE LEAVE ME BE!" which he took as "Yes, I will return to you forever more! Let's go to the movies on Saturday ok??"
A typical day: approx. 10 calls and 7 texts + 5 pics of him, (the last one being at 4:00a.m.), followed by him being right under my window in my neighbor's garage at 9:00 a.m)., After Friday/this a.m. of it, I finally texted him:
Stop texting, calling, sending pics, coming to my apt. EVERYDAY and hanging w/my neighbors and trying to get info out of them, (a new activity after the calling started. he hates the guys who live here otherwise)...
.i put everything clearly into writing and he responded quite angrily, which scares me too. But i wanted this part of it in writing in case i need a restraining order.
sorry to dump on you guys. This just makes me feel really shitty and embarrassed. I am NEVER gonna date or love anyone again. I am a fucking disaster. Dammit. Fuck.
Who's had this shit happen?? It feels completely awful. on a million different levels.
AND ya know what the asshole guys who live in my building ask?? "What did I do to lead him on??" FUCK!! They never even liked him because of his junkie history. Now they're blaming me?? fuck!!!
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