so, i just woke up from a really shitty nightmare, and by just. i mean an hour ago. and i've been sitting around with all the lights on until it turned 5am.

anyhow. the basis of the whole thing was about how i live in this apartment alone, and i'd woken up in the middle of the night to realize it was cold an drafty (which it was, irl) so i walked around and saw that my back door was wide open, as were all my window. so i shut them, but as i jingled the door latch/chain thing my dog came running.. cept this is my dog that already died, like a year ago. who was a big lab-pitbull mix that was cute and loyal but my mom killed because she is a horrible person.

AND then i breathed a sigh of relief because i had a dog... and it's a very protective dog. so i let it out to go pee and it ran around like a puppy again, and i realized that in my dream, my dog wasn't elderly (as i last remembered it) but young and precious. so i let it back in, but as i closed a window, saw my mom's SUV parked outside with both my siblings yelling at me... and apparently someone had cut my phone lines and they'd been trying to get a hold of me, and wanted the dog back ASAP. so they started calling it, and screaming. and the dog ran to the window and my mother called for it to come, and it did. but being unfamiliar with the apartment, it lunged out the window, and fell 2 stories to it's death.

and my sister yelled "ew it barfed when it hit the ground" and continued to text message whoever she fucking text messages all day and night. and i was REALLY FUCKING ANGRY. because it wouldnt have died if they had have been such rude, stupid, impatient assholes.

and then i woke up.
and realized. i fucking live alone. and in a not at all safe neighbourhood. and that this is also stupid.

and. i have to be awake in a half hour anyway.. to go sing fucking songs about recycling and conservation infront of like 1200 grown adults who're all stuck there because it's a mandatory conference. why? because my boss is making me. and i did this last year.. and it bombed. because what self respecting 41 year old wants to get up and dance and do sign-language movements to educational nature songs? NONE OF THEM. why they keep booking us to showup.. i don't know.

there had better be free bagels [ at this stupid conference ]
and this bug-bite had better not start turning into an alien, or some deeply disturbing bug that lays eggs in your skin.


and. well. atleast now i'm preoccupied about thinking about kltr's remark about pea farmers and nipples. and such.

point is, how do you recover from your nightmares (especially when they're reality based, and not about The Boogeyman or Condoleeza or Poltergeists)? and what's the worst nightmare you've ever had?

(nightmare.. now that i think about it, also means night-female-horse. which makes the word much more pleasant)

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that sounds really nasty

two recent nightmares

- this one is the worst as i have it on a regular basis. my little sister get's abducted, raped and killed by the men who live in the housing for immigrants near the mcdonalds. and im there but i can't do anything about it. i think this stems from when i was younger and the men who lived in these flat things always used to ask me and my friends into their flat and so we ran away. and when i wake up it still feels real so i go up to her room and get in bed with her

- my dad, who is totally anti-drus, trying to make me do lines of cocaine telling me that it's better than the high i get with weed, very strange, then he gets mad because i wont

- oh yeah and one which is recent, but keep dreaming of results day and i don't get into uni

i woke up this morning and the first thing that popped into my skull was death. not a specific person, just the feeling that it's going to happen somewhere close.

or maybe it's the recently prescribed vicodin.

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Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift - that's why it's called the present
- Babatunde Olatunji (and Kung Fu Panda)

I dreamt that someone neg repped me on KR the other night. True.

I woke up this morning and the lights were still out. They were out from 11 am yesterday until about half an hour ago.
We have well water, so we had no H2O either. It was a suckfest. With a toddler, it was really, really hard. But it was also sort of fun in a roughin' it kind of way.

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i recently dreamed that marilyn manson and twiggy ramirez were trying to kill me in their goth getups but then i took them to the gas station to get blow and they left me alone.

i dreamed we held up a bank but all we found in the vault was aduki beans.

analysis please

I always have nightmares. I've gotten so use to them I wake up roll over and go back to sleep. The worst nightmares for me have been the really graphic ones and the black and white ones. The black and white always leave an eerie feeling in me that doesn't go away for days after.

i have nightmares almost everynight. i still get really scared though and its gotten a lot worse since i moved out from my boyfriend and have to live alone.
though lately i seem to just have a recurring that all my teeth are either broken or that they just fall out. someone once told me that dreaming your teeth fall out means you will die soon.

I read that it means change.

ah that would make a lot more sense, seeing as pretty much everything has changed for me recently (boyfriend/job/house).
thanks.

i was having such intense nightmares last year that i ended up seeing a doctor about it because it was throwing off my day, especially the lucid ones and dreams within dreams.

she said that she's found the characters and even inanimate objects in your nightmares somehow represent you, usually qualities you dislike or fear you have. and best way to figure them out is to draw a picture of a scene from the dream that sticks out and write adjectives next to each person or object (like scared, anxious, embarrassed, guilty, sadistic, etc.) then say 'i am' before each one and see how true it rings. worked almost everytime for me and i was a lot less anxious about them.

also, apparently horror movies actually do make nightmares a LOT worse and more common because they blur the line between reality and imagination.

well, good responses, team.

and secondly. i can't shake this nightmare. it's been haunting me all fucking day. i keep forgetting it wasnt real.

and now i'm sortof scared to go to sleep tonight.

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drempt last night about zombies coming into the house. Racing against the clock the get everyone into the attic. thinking of supplies we would need, watching the gate thru the window, to make sure the zombs weren't crashing thru while I filled water bottles, grabbing blankets, shoving a child up the ladder into the attic. Then they're in the house...

But I'd just finished reading "The Family"...the manson saga...so, there ya go.

I often have falling ones but falling from weird heights or places.

I used to have one where I was chased by a bear but the funnier part is that I hate the forest so I might have been running from the trees.

<< i moved out from my boyfriend and have to live alone.>>

heh, i haven't had night terrors since i moved OUT of my (now ex) bf's house

Lately, as I've been aburptly awakened from a dream or two, by a ringing telephone or a dog barking, I've noticed that I can keep a dream alive and do what I want, if I don't answer the call or open my eyes.

It's quite amazing actually. I can basically feel the emotions I'd feel if it were happening in real life. I think this is called lucid dreaming. I've heard it referred to. For instance, if you're dreaming of something you enjoy and suddenly there is an awakening sound in real life and you ignore it and concentrate on what you were dreaming about and you don't open your eyes, you can stay in your dream state and be awake at the same time.

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worst nightmare (as a kid) was a dream of a psycho version of the Swedish Chef muppet throwing sharp utensils at friends and I as we ran quickly from a horrible "paperboy" stunt of throwing newspapers along the route.

Abrupt wakeup nightmares are related to stalkers or odd haunted places, I fall out of bed and/or scream.

fuck!

i woke at 4:15 this morning and snapped awake, with the deep and serious feeling that something is very very wrong. but everything seems fine... and now i cant sleep.

but there was no nightmare, this time. atleast not that i remember.

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I had recurring nightmares that someone was chasing me/ trying to kill me and I'd say that's the worst but I was never able to control them or make myself feel better about them during the day.
Eventually they went away though so I hope yours will too (soon).
do you let your new dog stay in the room with you? If not, that might make you feel better?
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