so im stuck working today. only til one or so but still. plus i was blindsided into working tomorrow all day. well, not blindsided, i volunteered, sort of. dad has little sis tonight to tomorrow and is taking her to her last basketball game today, so it was out of the goodness of my heart. but still, i dont really want to be stuck here, plus i havent been sleeping again so im ****ing exhausted and just want to go to bed.

anyone else sharing my misery?

i almost was.
called out 2 and a half hours before my shift (blasphemy). and they probably won't be able to replace me and really needed me.
i had to explain myself and blah and I'MSOSORRYIT'SSUCHSHORTNOTICE but i just couldn't do it.

i've been having anxiety problems all day and knew i'd freak out if i went ( i deal in customer service).

i had a good excuse though, i have to move may 1 and still don't have a place so i said i had to look at an apartment.

but oh, the guilt.

I have to work every other Saturday, and this one is it.

I hate working Saturdays. They're slow as molasses and I am never well rested enough for them. But I'll be done at 5:30, and then my boy and I are going to see Grindhouse.

I'm going to spend all of tomorrow in bed.

hell to the no.
it's Saturday, the only day i dont work.

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i am so vain. and yet, so masochistic. how can the two coexist?
-francesca woodman

I was supposed to. But I'm deathly sick. And this was supposed to be my first day on the job oh noes.