| I really really really dislike to be a paid worker
I don't like being an employee, I'm sorry I just don't. I wasn't brought up for this. My grandfather was a great author, my grandmother was the mayor of Panama City, I HAD money.
Maybe I wasn't a rich 300 million dollar kid but I was rich, or very upper uppper upper middle class, and that's the way I was brought up.
I was totally spoiled, I mean my christmases where like mountains of toys it was unbelievable. My house is huge, my backyard is huge, total rich kid's house.
But then, my family lost all their money. I'm not poor or anything but I am working class now. I know this thread sounds so evil and spoiled bratty but what can I say?? I'm totally lost in life. I wasn't brought up with a work ethic, my parents didn't work, specially my dad who is an alcoholic bum, I'm not used to work. I had a rich kid's upbringing. I went to a posh school hence my english, etc. And now, even though I'm not poor, I don't have the money I used to have, and now I'm in a low job, a researcher on a image bank, I mean ANYONE could do my job, it's not special.
I feel totally inferior to my bosses, even though I know I'm not, I'm more talented and better but they have money and I don't and that somehow makes me inferior in the social rank.
It really bothers me because my parents didn't really gave me the tools to be independent, but then they didn't give me the money either so I'm basically left with nothing. I'm working my way up and that's cool but I find it so difficult, I'm just not used to the daily struggle of schedules and coworkers and bosses and bills, I'm just not used to that.
I'm surrounded by people that are so, mmm what's the word, unclassy?? not cultured?? I mean they are not like me. I'm not where I'm supposed to be and it's frustrating.
I used to be very bitter about it a few years ago when I graduated from school, but I got this job in my uncle's law firm, wich is one of the most prestigious ones in my country (I'm not kidding, I should be loaded), where I basically sing for the owners of companies, it's like a signatary, I don't know how to say it in english, it has to do with private societies, etc. and I get paid. I used that money to pay my university, and that took the bitterness away because I got the opportunity to go to the school I want to go to.
But I would like to be in Europe or New York, or have my own photo studio and I just don't know how to do it and don't have the money, it's so frsutrating. But I'm no longer bitter.
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