Okay, so I need to get something off my chest, sorry to bother y'all with it.

I’m so angry at my county’s decision to not grand me a wheel chair, electric cart and shower seat. (can't stand that long anymore, I now sit on a lawn chair to shower)
Inside my house I can manage myself okay with crutches, but once I step outside I need a wheel chair and someone to push it all the time.
I got a loaner chair in May, and filled out paperwork to get my own, plus an electric cart, because I can’t expect my mom to always go with me when I need to go to the doctors, dentist, library or when I need something from the supermarket.
I got assessed by some asshole doctor, and his conclusion was that because I quit physical therapy my condition isn’t permanent, and that I therefor don’t qualify for the things I applied for.
He made some horrible mistakes in his rapport to the county.
He said I quit therapy after 4 times, but I went 8 times.
He said I refused to talk to a social worker, which I didn’t, she was on holiday and later got ill, so she was the one who canceled an appointment, not me, I never refused to speak to her.
He said I have ONE condition which causes pain to my lower back, while I have 3 types of rheumatism, so he horribly downplayed my condition, even though my rheumatologist wrote him a letter stating my conditions.
He said he spoke to the doctor that treated me during my physical therapy on the phone, while that doctor denies he spoke him.
I was told that there would be written notes in my file that would indicate that the telephone conversation did take place, like the date and time and content of the call, so I asked to see my file and wanted to copy it.
I was granted that request, so when I got there I was terribly surprised to find out that the file had been “cleaned up”, and all “internal memo’s and notes” had been taken out of the file by the same person that told me the notes existed and would be in my file.
There was a post-it on my file saying it was cleaned up with a signature of the person responsible, and when I wanted to copy that post-it to have prove of the clean up, they took the post-it off the file, and refused to let me copy it.
I’m now basically stuck in my house, I can SEE the supermarket, but can’t reach it.
I’ve filed a complaint and will fight this thing with my lawyer, but the hearing won’t take place till half of January, and after that the county will have 8 weeks to make a decision and I can appeal again.
If they decide to ignore my complaint I will appeal, and that can take till April, and will mean I have to go to court.
I had applied for this stuff under a law we have to make sure handicapped people can still participate in every day life like normal people.
Yet they seem to think I don’t deserve it because I quit my physical therapy.
They don’t seem to understand that someone with 3 different types of rheumatism can’t use fitness equipment with 65 lbs. of weight on them.
I tried to get them to lower it and they did, but the regime there was too hard for me, I couldn’t sleep from the pain.
I went there to improve my walking, but it only got worse.
I did know going in it would get worse, but we set a goal of getting it improved in 6 weeks, and if no improvement was there, I would stop with “consent” of my doctor.
I estimated that the pain I was in would not get better in 2 weeks, let alone that my walking would improve.
I HAD to draw a line, because I couldn't sleep, had major trouble to physically get out of bed, and could barely walk inside the house anymore, and since I live alone that's a problem.
So after 4 weeks of quite intensive work outs I decided to quit to make sure I could walk and have a life, and now I’m being punished for it.
My lawyer thinks I could win, if the doc that made the horrible fitness regime will testify that I won’t benefit from more treatment, but seriously, what doctor will testify to that?
Not a lot of them, and I don’t think he will.
That would mean that I won’t get the things I need to lead a somewhat independent life, and I’m really upset about that.
I’m 26 for fucks sake, I can’t very well expect my mom to drive me everywhere for the rest of my (well, her, I do plan to outlive her) life right?
I can't call her when I need milk, she has a life, a job and she needs her space.
She's currently at home, totally stressed out and medicated because of all of this.
So what the hell am I supposed to do if I loose the case?
I’m getting seriously freaked and very, very pissed, because lately it seems that a whole lot of shit is happening, I can’t take this.
If I loose this case I’ll flip big time.
My county is very strict and believes their doctors blindly, but in this case they made so many mistakes, it’s not funny anymore.
Does anyone have any advise on what I could do?
I do trust my lawyer 100.000% percent, he already helped me win a case for a handicapped parking card, he’s really good.
I’m calling my general physician today to see if he will testify that I’m done with physical therapy, maybe that can help.
Sorry for the rant, but I’m seriously freaked.

awww that sounds shit. will you ever be able to walk by yourself? i hope you get what you want. doctors are gayshits. goodluck with it.

stop being so fucking lazy and WALK. if christopher reeve can do it, so can you!

Maybe you just need a few days to cool off, collect your thoughts. As far as your doctors and such, I don't think they mean anything but the best for you. It sounds like you're talking the rest of your life without even a second opinion on any of it from anyone. You sound really distressful too. They are probably really upset as well. At least hear them out.

Nope, I will only get worse.
I already made some adjustment for when I need a wheel chair indoors too.
I already have a special seat for the kitchen, so I at least can cook and clean.
Thanks for the support!