As some of you may know, I quit smoking a few weeks ago.. i went cold turkey, I must of not had a ciggurette for at least three and half weeks..

I was proud of myself and my boyfriend was even prouder.. i did it for him, really. He gave up a little while back, you see.

Anyway, last sunday, my poor grandad died and I've been feeling ever so down and exhausted from helping out with funeral arrangements etc. I've been trying to get on with life as normal at the same time as feeling incredibly emotional and helping my mum arrange this huge funeral. I'm just exhausted. And what I've needed since sunday morning is a CIGGURETTE.

So Monday night.. My boyfriend begs me to go to this stupid party that I never wanted to go too. I didn't feel up to it, but I went to keep him happy. I didn't know anyone there and felt soooo unconftable.
At one point, I walk outside and my completely wasted boyfriend is smoking a fag
I joined in.

Yestoday, my cousin bought me a 20 pack and told me I needed it. I showed my boyfriend and he acted like a right twat. He snatched them away and refused to give them back. THEN he said the only negotiation would be if he gave me one every now and then, so he knew how much I was smoking.. THEN when he knew that wouldn't work.. He took out ten ciggurettes from the pack and kept them for himself!! and said 'Nicole, I'm only doing this because I care about your health and I care about you.'

I am pissed off.

Advice.. am I being a pathetic? One of those annoying smokers that say they will quit for a little while then moan and complain
and nobody really wants to hear..

Or is my boyfriend being extremely selfish...

I feel so exhausted and like all my energy is drained. I'm constantly doing things for everyone else at the moment, to keep everyone happy. If it's not going to bad partys with my boyfriend, it's listening to my friend cry all night because she likes somebody who doesn't like her back, or arranging get togethers, babysitting my cousin's bratty kids, cooking food for my lazy father..

I really would like to mourn, you know.

This isn't a serious thread. I am just out of my mind with boredom....

i think your boyfriend is being selfish.

Same. I don't understand why he'd need to keep the cigarettes for himself if he's quit smoking?
I think you just need a couple of days away from everyone who rely on you so much, you need some time for yourself so you can mourn your grandfather & not have people nagging you to be doing other things.

Sorry, I just re-read this and realised how annoying I sound. I don't often complain like this... it makes me sound so moody. But I just need to get this of my chest.. it doesnt seem like I can confinde in anyone else right now.

He is selfish.

yes, he is selfishh, only thinking or caring about himself. i say dump his ass, the deccision to quit smoking should have been for you not him. and obviosly, he hasnt quit.

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Originally Posted by dotty wokker and laugh about it all you want. you wont be laughing when my friends dos the fuck out of your hard drive.

Ohhh no I wouldn't go as far as too dump him, I love him way too much. But this is a new side I've seen to him. And I don't like it at all. I think I need a break, some how.

what do you think a break is? unless you mean go on a vacation or soemthing without him for a few days.

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Originally Posted by dotty wokker and laugh about it all you want. you wont be laughing when my friends dos the fuck out of your hard drive.

Can't you just buy your own cigarettes? Screw him and his tightass with your cigarettes. I don't smoke anymore either. Stress makes me want to smoke again though sometimes..s tress and booze.

I'm frustrated too.. .. I drank too much caffiene and can't concentrate properly.gfgmmf,,v,,v, and that CUNT Justin Timberlake is on the radio again ugh. this is not MUSIC it's porn over a pissweak fruity loops beat and some fuck with too much compression GLITTER////// telephone reverb = Justin Timberlake #1 hit songzzz. Atleast that Rock Your Body songg had actual singing. Even if he sounded as though he had no testicles. Does anyone else thinkt hat Christina Aguilera sounds like Michael Jackson nowadays?

i don't know about that but i know that every time she comes out with yet another song about her poor mother and her abusive father they all sound exactly the same to me.

Yeah, I can buy my own. And thats probably what I am going to do later on. I just feel so pissed off that he took half the pack, its like he stole them for himself to smoke, even though 'smoking is discusting'

Do you know what I hate about drinking to much caffiene? Not the buzz you get from it that lasts for too long and makes you seem quite hyper, when normally you're anything but.

Just when the effect leaves you and you shake like anything and begin to feel paranoid. Thats seriously how I get. Like the first time you get stoned on weed or something..

I feel ilke that now cause I never drink it... so im shaking and paranoid that I have ink on my face from the calligraphy I did at lunch and some guy said i had a weird look about me today uggghg.

You should stock up on cigs and wait til he has none and sit there blowing the smoke in his smug face. Or better yet.. really quit smoking so yuo can pester him about his gross habits. Can you steal then back when he goes to sleep//

That new "aint no better man" song somehow soundd sli ke Michael jackson to me. It's not even ni english anymore its just like wailing in that loud middle voice she has.

EHT NE BITA MEEEAHN EHH NIII ehfhh nee EHHH DOOO AHHH

That's what it sounds like to me. I wish they let me listen to classic fm again Im so much lesss ANGRY then.

This sounds so appealing right now.
I reckon I will probably do that. He needs to know I do not tolerate such selfishness !!

BUT CAN YOU PLEASE LEARN HOW TO SPELL "cigarette".

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^ Now that you've pointed that out, it seems really obvious thats how you spell it, and i feel like a fool.

you can do whatever the fuck you want. if you want to smoke go for it. your boyf needs to understand he can only support what you decide not make them.

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most people who quit smoking (me included) fall off the wagon a few times. you've been under stress, so don't be so hard on yourself. and fuck a boy - smoke 'em if you want - a new study says they stave off parkinson's disease, oddly enough. ammo, my friend.

quitting smoking is *hard*. Trying is good. keep trying. i will if you will.

quit fucking whining and start smoking crack you fucking pussy.

I would normally applaud you for quiting but the fact that you did it for him makes you a fucking idiot.

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