things i think about too much: courtney
how much i wish people i get physically violent with would melt and fall in love with me like they do some other ppl i know
how much i wish i could look more ppl in the eye without feeling like i'm a worse person than them, even tho i know i'm not as horrible in many ways as them (yet)
how much i used to love BOTH the music AND lyrics by soo many of fave bands but found these days nothign is happiness like Hole & Courtney
Love records.. since all the other singers lyrical content thesedays givs me nightmares. for some reason courtneys doesnt even though much of it is verrrry "innappropriate*
how much i hate it that billy corgan & courtney
love arent my surrogate parents. or scott weiland.
how much it absolutely freaks me that i'm turning to classical music as the only othr taste in my music selection
will release lyrics & break my heart when she's the last 'idol' of mine left that i enjoy *EVEN* with the anti nazi lyrics on prettyontheinside.. which dont make any sense to me anyway. but just annoying since i'm naxi hereditary & cant help violent streaks. but evrybodys violent anyway
HOW THERE R ABSOLUTELY NO REAL MALE ROLE MODELS IN ALL ROCK HISTORY THAT I CAN TRULY RELATE TO ANYMO. (like singers, lyrically)
how much i hate it that i'm a mini-me marilyn manson. yet there r no pogo like boys around my town to b loyal with cause evry1's being a wuss since nine inch nails realeased 'with teeth' & THEY ACTAULLY BELIEVE i'm samael!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg. idiots.
how much i truly like trent reznor
how i hate it that tool has a song about baking me up in .... when marilyn can be lucifer & get away with it.. even tho i'm extremely happy he can.
even tho he probably eats ppl like trent reznor claims.
how much i hate
how much i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate that i cant stop ranting about **** again 2 nobody, cause nobody ever writes me fanmail anymore, like little more-than-shirt hellos. i only release PM's as public threads when ppl ... like whyyyy do they stop??
okay.. time to go make up a kids book like madonna haha.
but i wish i was a dictator but nobody luvs me enuff. to type **** for me. so i can sell my autobio faster. cuase each time i do it 'God' crashes 'my' PC. i mean, when i type attempt to write out my whole life on a Jewish owned PC.
hahahahaha 'thank God' i'm even allowed to use it. but it's a Microsoft, so that's okay. still think apples r better.