was is something like a long drawn out illness?
was it unexpected?
was it horrible and broke your whole world in pieces?
was is wished upon?

are they alive yet gone?

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The man,
a florist,
said he ended up with the spray can inside him after insulting his partner's penis size.

both parents. drugs. long time ago though, so it wasn't so obviously painful.
but growing up, i think it weighed heavily on me, in good and bad ways.
but it was especially weird not to have parents when i started elementary school, cause i never really understood "families" in general. which is probably why i'm still kind of a loner. like p.w.

wow thats heavy mr wanker. i couldnt possibly imagine having to go through that. i was so attached to my mom growing up. i hid behind her legs for so long cus i was a shy one. so, you lost both rents pre elementary school, were you in foster care or did you have family to take care of you?
im a loner and i grew up with both parental units at my disposal til i was 15, so i dont thinkthat has much to do with much in terms of being a loner.

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The man,
a florist,
said he ended up with the spray can inside him after insulting his partner's penis size.

i lost my mother in 1990, but i was young enough and that's been so long ago that i don't remember it (or her, really, for that matter). i have some photos though. it was completely unexpected - she had an aneurysm. she was 35, i think. i'm not postive.

it never affected me growing up even though the school kept putting me in counseling, but more recently it's started to bother me. i suppose now that i'm older, i wonder how my life would've played out with her present. i'm sure everyone who loses a parent goes through that, but i wonder even more since i have no idea what she was like.

also recently, i found a website called findagrave that (for whatever reason) just happened to have a picture of my mother's headstone. i think it's a bit weird to go around and randomly take pictures of someone's grave, but i enjoyed seeing it again as i haven't visited the cemetery in a long time.

i don't know my father and he wasn't married to my mother so i just pretend/assume he's dead.

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Raise the dead on your turntable.

do you mind if i ask why you think or feel that it didnt effect you? when it happened did you turn it off? was she raising you?

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The man,
a florist,
said he ended up with the spray can inside him after insulting his partner's penis size.