| i lost my mother in 1990, but i was young enough and that's been so long ago that i don't remember it (or her, really, for that matter). i have some photos though. it was completely unexpected - she had an aneurysm. she was 35, i think. i'm not postive.
it never affected me growing up even though the school kept putting me in counseling, but more recently it's started to bother me. i suppose now that i'm older, i wonder how my life would've played out with her present. i'm sure everyone who loses a parent goes through that, but i wonder even more since i have no idea what she was like.
also recently, i found a website called findagrave that (for whatever reason) just happened to have a picture of my mother's headstone. i think it's a bit weird to go around and randomly take pictures of someone's grave, but i enjoyed seeing it again as i haven't visited the cemetery in a long time.
i don't know my father and he wasn't married to my mother so i just pretend/assume he's dead.
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