tell me all about it. we are in the spiritual dept dont worry. let yourself blossom and open.

despite my current, petty bad luck phase, ive met someone recently that seems to be leading me down this sort of path that i feel i need to go down. its not cultish or anything, he is just a very pure seeming person and i feel like going wherever he tells me.

ive always felt or told myself that i was a spiritual, soulful person and this and that, and i feel like i am a good person, but i think i can be better and ive never really had a direction where i wanted to go. also, i expect and wait for things to come to me which is probably a bad thing. he makes me doubt myself and my intentions on a deeper level than anyone has made me, to think about things in a broader aspect. he nearly brought me to tears on several occasions actually.

ive been looking for some time now, for something im not sure but i want and need it and i think he will show me things that will bring me closer to whatever it is.

my mother....because she has always tought me if you think it will happen and you have faith that it will happen then it will but if you are negative think it wont happen and dont have faith that it will then it wont and i strongly believe that

my daughter brought me to that level. she's pure, honest, not (yet)jaded, and unconditional.

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no. i kind of wish i did. not in a religious way. i would like to have someone to give me really really good, guiding-type advice, rather than the selfish fuck-ups that my friends are.

now lets sit back & wait for all the weird christians on this forum to pour in here and tell them that JESUS IS THEIR GUIDING LITE AND SHOULD BE EVERYBODY'S GUIDING LITE. :sigh:

no. i feel like i do that for myself - but i do feel like i wish i had someone to share the journey with,... i feel like i know who/where i want to be in my life but i just wish i knew someone else who was going through the same thing or has recently done so so that i could talk to them about it. i need a connection.

i'm glad you've got something like that, it sounds lovely.

Yeah, I don't either

I feel my own way in the dark.

i think im just too cynical to be spiritually guided. i dont know, im not even comepletly sure of hwat spirituality is exactly. can someone be spiritual and be atheist? no god or religion, not even belief in any sort of energy. self discovery is more valuble than listening to someone else tell you who they think you are. thats just something you need to figure out for yourself and come to terms with on your own. its nice to have someone there to support you or lend their shoulder when you need it, but that doesnt mean they need to be the one t push you into it.

plus i dont think id want to be around someone who makes me want to cry over myself. :/

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Originally Posted by dotty wokker and laugh about it all you want. you wont be laughing when my friends dos the fuck out of your hard drive.

Misfit, that is really cool that you have someone to do this with. I think this is a tricky thing that lots of people don't exactly "know" what they're supposed to be feeling or looking for.

It's been my experience that as I've gone through different stages, people have been put in my path who are sort of there to help me through things or to teach me different lessons. Some of it isn't real pleasant, but it's MY responsibility to learn from them.

Sindy, I used to feel the same way, a long time ago. My problem was, I kept on surviving through some really bad shit, and while I should have been really happy about it, I didn't like the way I felt. Yet, I did feel that there was some sort of higher power around me. I detest manmade religion, Christianity in particular, so I was very messed up about it. But I was open to making myself the best person I can be, which includes messing up, taking responsibility for the mistakes, and LEARNING from it. So, that's what I did. Started with the therapy, and ended up in sobriety at 21. Started trying to find my soul, if I had one.

I would be incredibly sad and closed up if I wasn't aware of all the spiritual lessons (i.e., karma, why things are put in my path, love, forgiveness, empathy, etc.) I admittedly don't understand the praying, chanting, rituals, and all that crap. That's not me at all. So for me, spirituality is staying open to the lessons around me and learning from them so that I become a better person in my soul.

A practical example: Here on KR: I try to always apologize when I realize that I've hurt someone unnecessarily, otherwise, it's bad karma. Plus, it's just really negative energy that stays out there on this board. We all know that I got myself into some very bad drama here that I regret very much. I'm not going into the details, but I've learned a lot about having empathy and caring about the well-being of another.

That's my kind of spirituality. Not in a religious sense, but in my sense.

no, i'm all alone

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no but i really wish i did. especially considering the bizarre and rather heavy spiritual situation i'm currently entrenched in.

Zaratustra.

Sounds pretty beautiful.

I'm keeping myself busy and open to a new relationship that will blow my mind. I have to believe it's just around some corner.

I think getting rid of too many easy comforts and shallow entertainments at home gets you out of the house or into a book, looking for deeper inspiration. Makes you confront your dissatisfaction.

Well, I am not very spiritual these days. I guess I'm a pagan agnostic? Does that make sense? Prolly not.

anyhow, I have a very good, *LIBERAL* gay christian minister friend. (I only mention the liberal and gay part because it clearly governs his views in this area) I mean, he doesn't like to be called a christian because of what pops into peoples minds when they hear that (conservative, etc) so he calls himself a disciple of christ instead. He's very smart and I would say he guides me spiritually even though I don't follow his particular belief structure.

My great Aunty Olive I guess. She was a very stylish woman, who was amazing at playing cards and smoked like a trooper. She was very elegant and poised with this amazing calmness - which was down to her devout faith. When she died she wasn't frightened and I often wonder 'what would Aunty Olive do?' She really inspired me. She was a very strong woman.