http://www.thefirewheel.com/

I really like this one, it's simple and direct, without distractions... I'm not familiar with other online oracles though, so I'd love to see other people's recommendations.

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You deceive yourself. Suffering is amusing and may even do work in a situation where two people are connected with each other. Where there is no mutual connection it is undignified, grotesque and ugly. It is seen to be something totally pointless and unnecessary, like all the rest of the suffering human beings do every day. There is now no relationship between us and I find your contortions merely embarrassing.

It gave me really depressing outcomes...does it generally just do this or do I have some kind of aura of misery that is even detectible by machines? I typed in "my boyfriend" and it came up with "sorrow"; I entered "my life" and it came up with "oblivion".

I don't think it generally gives negative or depressing outcomes. It supposedly attaches a karmic value according to the words used in your query, but I don't know how it calculates that... maybe typing just "my boyfriend" and "my life" indicates that you are extremely overwhelmed these things (because you didn't choose a specific issue relating to your boyfriend or your life, but ALL of each), and that made the entries earn a greater negative value.

I wouldn't get too down about it because it still leaves room for you to interpret the results as depressing or not. Like a positive spin on either "sorrow" or "oblivion" would be to view it as merely a reflection of your current state regarding your boyfriend or life and see what further thought on that brings to you.

Here's the results I've had so far, that I can recall right now:

I interpreted this as saying, relationships and people just *are*, their place and influence in my life is up to me. Like the feelings involved are a lump of clay, and I'm the sculptor, or they're like water and I choose what kind of vessel it flows into, or if it should even be contained by me-- I could just let it flow right past me. I was really angry at, disgusted & disappointed by, this person at the time and raging, "What is the point of this relationship?! It's nothing but pain and the most stupid, pointless suffering!!!"-- just a helpless victim; this reminded me I needed to take responsibility.

This regarded the same person mentioned above. I hadn't heard from him for days after the big blowout that inspired the first query and I felt extremely low, confused, and hurt. I took this to mean that I was just focusing on the momentary pain and temporary circumstances surrounding this dramatic situation and needed to look deeper and/or wider to figure out what I needed to do. In the end, I think it did advise me to "let go" because I needed to detach from the immediate situation in order to gain perspective.

I did this one immediately after the "hang on or let go" one, and was stumped at first because A) It did not appear immediately "positive" or constructive to me, and B) I KNEW I was in conflict already! And seething, bitterness, hardship, etc. were all words I felt fully applied to me. But then I realized, well obviously if I am sitting here querying this situation twice in 20 minutes it's a conflict I need to resolve-- obviously this is where my energies should be focused now! Like what did I expect... it would tell me to focus on nurturing myself, taking a break (running away from the problem)? I also felt it returned me to the perspective of, it's *just* a conflict, a problem that can be resolved, it's not this huge overwhelming thing I'd obviously felt it was just moments before ("hang on or let go"-- totally melodramatic).

This is the most recent one for me. I viewed this as wish fulfillment and really stating the obvious, for me as someone who has been wilfully blind to a certain extent... I've felt creatively stunted and blocked for ages; I'm too critical and self-limiting, censoring myself before I even put pen, pencil, crayon, whatever to paper. I feel like this says, what I previously viewed as the unsurmountable effort of expressing myself, once taken will immediately repay itself in feelings of relief, freedom, joy, etc.

Sorry that was so long!

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You deceive yourself. Suffering is amusing and may even do work in a situation where two people are connected with each other. Where there is no mutual connection it is undignified, grotesque and ugly. It is seen to be something totally pointless and unnecessary, like all the rest of the suffering human beings do every day. There is now no relationship between us and I find your contortions merely embarrassing.