I just wish there were more of us...fagz I mean...esp. around here.

Seriously, I'm a hormonal male.

Most of my friends are straight and I grew up around all straight people. Being gay was not a big deal and I was treated much like you would treat someone who just didn't feel it necessary to date people.

However, as I've grown, I've made more gay friends and I'm slightly on the fence about them. I tend to see the majority of gay people as self loathing and crabby people who would rather persecute straight people than form friendships with them. My boyfriend's friends are pretty much all gay and, being in SF, most of them are self righteous fags who think the world is out to get them.

My family cared for about 3 months that I was gay and then I was discussing sex and failed relationships with my mom ever since.

I dunno if I am glad to be gay. WTF is there to be glad about? I love having sex with men, of course. I'm glad to be alive and this is who I am. I accept it. I'm glad to be me.

That is a really positive attitude to have. I guess being unsatisfied with myself allows me to focus on things that at least appear to exemplify this in the outside world, such as difference in sexuality.

Riotfug, I echo the sentiments of your second statement.

ummm no im certainly not glad to be gay. i mean i pretty much think i am. i've come to that conclusion, although i'd like to be straight or even bi but the thought of pussy does nothing for me.

i think my life would be much easier and more enjoyable if i was straight though. it kind of sucks. which leads me to the conclusion that being gay is not a choice.

i'm not, i hate the way that i will always be treated differently by my family (and that it's kept secret from most of them) how awkward it is telling people & that i'm scared to be too affectionate in public for fear of what may happen.

I hate the fact that the most simple acts of intimacy such as holding hands causes such a fuss and fear for same sex partners.

I feel the same way too.

yeah, it's so horrible and unfair.

I love the men way too much to care about going to the other side. I honestly don't care. It's pretty casual being gay for me and I don't see a huge difference between when I was straight and now.

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When you were straight?

Up until I was about 15. I had real female infatuations and everything normal straight guys do, then I switched interests practically on purpose. Hahaha.

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That's crazy, man.

on purpose???? what do you mean??

I still become infatuated with women, on an emotional level. With guys it's almost always just sexual.

so you are basically like straight men who like men??

I just got interested in being gay so it opened a new part of life to me. I still have crushes on women (Isabella Rosellini mainly, , someone get me a towel) but I'm mostly into guys. My list of women is very exclusive.

SBeakon: I find men much more sexual than women, not necessarily sexier though. And I hate to be this kind of New Age hippie but, oh man, since I'm a typical Libra (shut up, I like it!) it's easy for me to attach to people, man or woman. I could get deeply attached to a man ina non-sexual way, but the sexual way will definitely be there.

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HCH, does that sound anything remotely like what I said?

What I meant is, I generally respect and admire women more than men. And since that's not a quality inherent in most heterosexual males, I'm going to respond to your query with a "no."

why am I revolted by what I just read??

oh ok.

Well what I meant is, and I don't want this to sound sexist or anything, but some gays have a "straight personality" whatever that is you know. Like they like cars and tools and their heroes are Shaquile O' Neil or Tom Cruise or whatever.

They usually stay in the closet and don't like effeminate guys.

I don't think I have anything straight in me, lol.

Because you're revolting.