Originally Posted by tracyr
Hi guys. Just wanted to stop by and say hello and tell you all how great you are and stuff.
Sid is still alive. The vet is totally shocked, but she agrees with most of you and me also. He wants to live and he isn't in pain yet. He's dying though. Everyday he goes a little bit more. I think tonight or tomorrow may be it. It's hard to say because he is soooo stubborn and he does not want to die. That's the hardest thing. He won't give up. On Sunday, he was eating! He was trying to eat a lot. On Monday morning too. We were getting kind of excited. He had a great night's sleep on Sunday night too. It was really nice, but I think that was his last big try. I guess it's downhill now.
His vet said the rest of his tests came in yesterday and it's bad bad bad. Every hour he gets to live is a gift. They also said they'll come to our house when it's time for him to go. I've done lots of things so his death will hopefully be as nice as possible for him. The ****ing Cancer is just eating him up as we speak. Please don't tell me to kill him because I can't. He's fighting so hard to live, I just couldn't do it to him. When he's so miserable and he doesn't care anymore, I'll know that it's time. This is so hard, but I'm learning a lot about life and death and unconditional love.
For instance, he is trying not to go to sleep....ever. He's so tired, he's nodding in midair, but he refuses to sleep and he hates being left alone. It's like he's afraid that if he goes to sleep he'll never wake up. Or if we leave, he'll never see us again. I have this little massager thing that I use all the time on him and when it works to the point that he's totally relaxed, I can get him to sleep...I mean the poor guy needs some rest!
Well, I've gotta get back because I'm betting that he's awake and that big white head is looking around for me right now.
Thank you again guys. I'm really impressed(?) touched(?) with how many of us have been through this and what a profound effect it has had. It's a big deal and **** anyone who's rolling their eyes about it. This dog has been with me way more than anyone in my own family. It will be a very long time before I get over this.
Our man is 13 years old as has always been a fighter - he was diagnosed with hip dysplasia 4 years ago and has deteriorated very slowley regarding his mobility - however still lived a very full life (he has a set of wheels to help him get around outside and he loves them). He has the brain of 4 YEARS OLD SO IS ALWAYS ON THE GO.
4 weeks ago he was diagnosed with haemolitic anemia ? from a drug reaction after being very poorly - not eating/drinking being very lythargic and loosing control of his bowls and urine he bounced back once he started a course of steriods. Unfortunatly he side effects kicked in and his bowel movements were very fequent and watery and eventually he stopped eating, worried that his drugsw ould not be taking effect we rang the vet who said it was time to put him to sleep.
Unhappy with this we took a second opinion - he changed his diet and gave him so probotics and within 24hrs - normal poo and a happier dog - however it was evident that his red blood count had droped again. confirming this on a blood test we have just started him on some auto immune suppressents but they will take a few days to work (if they are going to work).
The last 2 nights have been awful - his breathing is very laboured, sometimes noisy and fast and like your dog he is refusing to sleep although he is so tired. Its so hard to know what to do for the best - do we hang in there.
I just dont know what to do! I have always said I wanted him here with us but to see him like this is so hard.