| Scars Last august/september, i was having a lot of problems with anger and i would get out of control and hurt myself. i would use anything sharp to scrape myself with, and cut my wrists. however, i only did this a few times and my skin never really completely broke, like i barely bled. like i said, just kind of scraped myself to calm down. so i don't label myself as a cutter because i NEVER was like sobbing with a razorblade. just would pinch myself or scrape myself to calm down and because i felt i deserved it.
i am 100% better now though.
but it is almost a year now and the scars show! for the past 6 months i have been rubbing this scarfade stuff on them and they ARE fading, but they are still noticeable! it does not make sense to me because they aren't even, like, bad cuts, they are just scratches basically but there are marks now. its SO annoying for me to not be able to rest my head on my hand in fear of someone seeing my bare wrist with the scars or being able to go out without bracelets all on my arm. they are improving but it is taking FOREVER, and i don't understand why because i never even really broke my skin, just scrapes.
what i basically want to know is, will they ever fade or do i have to live my life like this from now on? it makes me feel miserable, self harm is THE biggest regret i have ever had. |