I just had my first good cry in over 16 years. My dad and I don't see eye to eye on some things, and we've been arguing a lot lately. Well, more like I'm just trying to say something, and he gets upset. But anyways.....Things got pretty heated, and I ended up flipping him off. It's the first time I've ever done that to him. I know it was wrong, and I'll apologize. We both have our issues (Mom dying, he just got remarried, etc) So we have things to work out. I just felt like saying that here, I hope it doesn't look like I'm just feeling sorry for myself.

"I was central
I had control
I lost my head
I need this
I need this
A paper weight, junk garage
Winter rain, a honey pot"

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My boyfriend's mother used to be an alcoholic. He told me that as a little boy, when he had to take care of her, he learned how to hold back tears. Now he doesn't know how to cry anymore...

Why do people act like crying is such a fucking bad thing? "oh nozz, I'm gonna show emotion, dat makes me WEAAK!!"

^She never mentioned that her crying was a bad thing, on the contrary she said "good cry".

I'm really sorry for your loss, really dreafully sorry. Your dad has lost his wife, imagine how bad he feels about his daughter being hostile towards him? This is a very lonely time for him, as well as you. I'm sure he would greatly appreciate the knowledge that you're on his side. He may have found a new partner, but a new relationship doesn't provide solace when you've already lost a loved one to death, and now are losing a loved one to resent. You should let him know how much you love him, and remind him that ye're together in this time of loneliness. You'd be surprised how much difference the knowledge of his daughter's consideration can make. It can be hard relating with someone who makes you so angry, I know, but once he knows that you care he'll begin to see things in your perspective as he realises where and when he may have behaves irrationally. Cry to your heart's content, hun, and best of luck.