Okay. My story of yesterday.

I woke up feeling like SHIT. I hadnt slept in days until I passed out last night. I could barely walk and as soon as I got to the bathroom I stopped breathing. Then when I caught myself I walked out and fell down the stairs. My mom looked at me and grabbed my face to see if I felt okay, and all of the sudden I couldnt see or hear her anymore.

But I could feel myself talking. Then I dont remember sitting down on a chair, but my mum gave me a drink and then brought me to the doctor.
So I have some crazy disease that they dont know how I got, and I keep fainting. So I have to sleep with my legs up so I dont pass out in my sleep and like die. Im so sore.



So, before my mom actually helped me, no one looked at me as if I was in trouble. They thought I did this to myself with drugs and asked me first. I was barely alive on my floor and my mother just was like 'Im going to ask you if you took anything before I actually bring you.'

My sister wouldnt help me either.





I think its RETARDED how people judge you by your clothes, look, and what music you like.
Some people think Im a JUNKIE and I am not at all.
I was in serious trouble yesterday, and it was NOT from drugs, and I could have died on my very own floor in my mothers arms.
But no. Apparently I LOOK like I do drugs and this is what happened.

That's how the doctors are with me.


"Are you sexually active?"
"No."
"ARE YOU SURE?!"
"Yes."
"Have you had sex, you can tell us."



"Have you done drugs?"
"No!"

And then the cycle repeats.

what disease do you have?

That's terrible, but don't worry about other people's stupid assumptions about you. It's unfair, but right now what's most important is you taking care of yourself and finding out how to manage this illness you've got. Be well.

I dont even remember what its called. They said it should go away in two days, but its been one more day and I fainted again. They said if it lasts longer than two days I have to go in for bloodwork and tests to make sure its not something more serious.

..I just dont understand why they didnt check that out while they could anyway...hahaha.