so generally My citalopram is helping Me out a whole bunch. I hardly ever every cry anymore, I don't wake up thinking the world is going to end or that I am going to die and I can function in a way I didn't think I would be able to before like getting public transport lots and getting in lifts etc.
BUT one of the side effects I'm suffering from is very regular suicidal thoughts. I really doubt I would ever act on them but I still find it disconcerting to say the least, especially since one of my biggest causes of anxiety has always been dying. My doctor says it is a very common side effect and basically just to deal with it but it is beginning to freak me out, its like I have another person in my head sometimes egging me on.
god I feel pretty embrassed and