Originally Posted by Silvine
I can smell my own paranoia like a wet fart in a car. At the moment, I am definitely not para. My mental health has never been so good - from a psychosis standpoint. Just got the blues from wanting heroin so badly.
Actually, come to think of it - something HAS been happening mentally - I've been having more frequent 'flashbacks' to my days on acid. It is interesting that you should mention paranoia. But, my withdrawal has triggered my acid reflux.
For instance, I don't hear things, but my vision becomes watery. Like I have tears in my eyes. Then another hallucination are the stars. I see tiny bright white lights in front of me. Just dozens of pin-pricks of light all swirling around my head.
I mentioned it in an IOPL today in class - that my work and attendance is suffering from hallucinations. I was not lying either. It is hard to concentrate when you are having a flashback.
it's actually strange you should mention vision. i go through phases of (and i'm having one at the moment) every now and then just... not being able to see properly. like i'm holding my eyes wide open and everything's a little dark and out of focus and... distant. it makes me feel as though things are very far away. and then i get a flush of tiny lights. but at the same time it's a bit like i'm wearing ear muffs or something. it's like one big reality combating helmet
i get physical flashbacks sometimes too, where i can feel
a drug in me, except it's not 2006 anymore. the most common one with that is tasting cocaine in my throat and then my nose goes numb. or a tooth goes numb. it's as if my body tricks itself sometimes. or remembers something i taught it independently of my conscious memory bank.
i've been having crazy dreams again too, but i dont really dream on drugs? it must quieten down that part of my brain. or else the lack just wakes it the hell up :-s