i am really just in the mood to ***** tonight.

***** ***** *****

I have not done any random tears

but I feel like if I did they might be justified

as an adult any sucesses i have had have been resented by or sabotaged by my mother
she is too competitive
and she doesn't want me to succeed
the idea of me surpassing her is not something she can stand

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted

please be a head case here in this thread
so i can have some company

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted

my dad just hates everything.

he used to sass me and tell me i was a ******** to bother getting A's.

then he'd play that billy joel song at me. that if i am then i think too much.

well he's wrong.

who will be the last one laughing when i'm buying his honky *** fancy thousand dollar harley parts on ebay?

bc i just don't know.

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some of my customers want me to suck their *****es. i tell them allah did not create my mouth for that purpose.

Well my current problems really have nothing to do with grades
although i have been SERIOUSLY considering dropping out even though I am only 6 months away from a BA in history
not that i could actually do anything with it. it is a completely worthless degree.
Pro:I would never have to do school again which would thrill me to no end
Con:My loans would come due in 6 months instead of in a year

So I have decided to just go but only just barely pass. Like only do the absolute bare minimum. My fear is maybe I will misjudge what the bare minimum is and accidently fail and then have to do more and pay more
One of the only plusses of being an orphan-literally no one checks/cares about my grades