i've had enough this year to last me a dozen lifetimes.
yesterday my friend died. poof. she always had health problems, in and out of hospitals. just got out of the hospital the day before. i can't fucking believe she's gone. a guy i knew died a couple of days before.
tomorrow is my 12 year anniversary w/ the corpse of my boyfriend.
who next?
been awhile since an oddball celeb died, i'm betting on one of those.
maybe it will be one of us.
i need a reaper bookie.

yes, i am drinking, gimme a break.

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I feel like it's been all around me this year, too. I've lost 4 people of varying importance in my life.
Drinking's a natural reaction to it now, but it'll hit you worse later if you try to blot it out. At least you're ranting about it: that's what I did in the summer when my friend died. It helped a little, although I'm sure some people are now scared of me....
Hope you're ok.

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i've also had this kind of year.
you drink girl. and dont let anyone give you shit about it.

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not drinking anymore, wasn't into it really.
neither has hit me yet but the cemetery tomorrow will be a real cunt.
when he went i actually started the 3rd issue of my zine that i thought was dead, so something comes out. but no more can happen, can't handle it.
only 2 months left this year, it's a fucking countdown

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I'd never EVER known anyone who died. I'm 19 this year my Mum died. Talk about the deep end of it, I still have all grandparents and everything. I did 2 weeks of HARD DRINKING, and then about 2 months of shock now it's starting to hit me.
Argh.
I have no idea how to go about getting over it. Ah well. I'll be fine I guess xx