Im not sure where to put this but I guess here will do.

I found out yesterday Im pregnant. Im 19years old and live with my boyfriend. Im currently on Social Welfare as I cannot get a job for the life of me. Boyfriend takes in about 500€ a week so altogether we're taking in roughly €700/week.

We've discussed having a baby before but only when we are able to provide it with anything and everything it needs and wants. We're undecided as to whether or not keep the baby. A termination is an option because the situation that we're in, we connot possible provide a good life for a child. I really believe it selfish on my part to keep a baby and for it to grow up in a financially unstable enviroment just so I dont have to deal with the mental anguish of going through with an abortion.

I went to write an email to an abortion clinic booking an appointment but seeing the words in front of me made it all too real. I dont think I have it in me to kill our baby. I mean Im not even 5 weeks and its not technically a "baby" yet, but at the same time it is. Im emotionally exhausted and distressed. Neither options seem to be a better choice than the other.

Im in a moral rut. I need help.

is adoption something you would consider?
it was not an option for me but for some it is

and 5 weeks is really as you said not very far along at all
its just probably a blob of cells right now only?

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted

nvm i'm drunk.

Adoption would never be a possibility. Im definitely not that strong. And yeah the idea of having a life growing inside of me is pretty cool and all but I keep thinking longterm. As I said its not fair to bring a baby into a world where you cant provide it with everything. Ugh Im an emotional wreck

well i think you are right
if you are more comfortable with it then you could ask your bf to write the email for you
but obviously that would be the least of the emotional strength you will need and hurdles you will have to get through in the course of all this

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted