What everybody else said! Like TracyR, I too have at least one close family memeber dealing with bipolar disorder. With her condition as extreme as it is, it's easy for her to get into the rut of "Nothing will ever be right, why am I even here, etc etc". She has come to understand, finally (she is much much older than I imagine you are) that in her case at least it's not what works, but what works right NOW -- and may have to be changed by & by.
So whatever it throws at you -- this too shall pass is exactly right, as Champers said above.
GO YOU!
Chyia, rly glad to hear your, & everyone's, "stabilization" stories