i think the place i went and the place im going for long term prescriptions have different systems so hopefully i get a clean slate.

if not whatever.

i appreciate the advice though. gives me ideas on how to talk to them.

i'm glad to know there's a slightly dif type of antidepressant b/c i'm unwilling to take SSRIs. i know i'll have to pretend to be on both types though most likely.

i will be on potentially dangerous drugs if i need them, i will NOT take those "safer" crutch drugs that just sit in your system and brain forever turning you into a synthetic robot. thing. or something

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gonna get my walkie talkie, and some mustard and some mayonnaise, and a mermaid, and some macaroni, bricks, and some telephone wires, and phone machines

which ones are those because sometimes thats what i feel like and i haven't taken daily meds in years
i'd love to be able to narrow it down

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted

that's how i feel about all SSRIs. so i am not sure why you feel that way or if a drug did it to you.

i like who i am, i like life, etc etc etc.
i just need this to MOVE around what i already HAVE if that makes sense. same exact reason people drink to socialize but not that banal and not for fun, but for normal shit.

i just need to find a smart psych.

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gonna get my walkie talkie, and some mustard and some mayonnaise, and a mermaid, and some macaroni, bricks, and some telephone wires, and phone machines

and google this p.rose

buspirone (which works slightly differently to SSRIs)

b/c that's what i meant by dif antidepressant, insomnia mentioned it

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gonna get my walkie talkie, and some mustard and some mayonnaise, and a mermaid, and some macaroni, bricks, and some telephone wires, and phone machines

yeah i had wikied that already actually
but one of the most common side effects is headaches and so i've already got those and can't take the chance on more

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should i choose a noble occupation
if i did i'd only show up late and sick
and they would stare at me with hatred
plus my only natural talent's wasted