Originally Posted by jellybella
i dont really understand silvine. have you swapped one addiction for another?when do you wean off subutex or is it forever?
Subutex is pure opiate. Its a supa sticky opiate too. So strong, it blocks the receptors out completely so heroin cannot bind to the heroin receptors in the brain. So, basically, you cannot get high from heroin when on subutex. Plus, it lasts 3 days - kinda.
That said, I am heavily addicted to this subutex. The withdrawal from subutex is supposed to be easier than heroin - but I disagree.
I felt like I was going to die today. 5 hours is a long time to rattle. Usually, I would score a bag of dark - but all my dealers are in prison. So, I didn;t score.
**** it. I need to get off subutex. But, when I am off subutex, I risk getting high from the heroin. And I prolly would too. At this point - summer - listening to Rihanna - Umbrella.
Back in 2008 - my buddy Lee was my best friend and we were gonna be together until the end. Then the end came. We split.
I quit heroin - went on the subutex - and he went on methadone - and started injecting.
I dunno. Some days I wish I was back on the dark. Because, like, I am always rattling on subutex. Some days the recommended daily dosage for me is not enough. I need more. So, I take the odd pill extra, but that leaves me short for the next few days. So, I rattle even harder.
Today, was just a bad day. It was ****ed up.