Yes, it is true. It has been several months (Since June 10th) since I quit heroin and crack. Mostly heroin. I had a small relapse on the 26th Dec 2008, but that is all behind me now and that was not a binge session or any thing crazy like that but just a maintenance dose when I ran out of subutex inappropriately due to my mis-administration of the drug.
But, seriously, I never thought the day would come where I could honestly stand up and say 'Don't need drugs!'
I was using since the age of 14-15 - I forget - definitely pre-16 though because I was in secondary school when I started. I started first with speed. I wanted to dance the night away. But, after being sold sherbet for speed, I started smoking marijuana. So, cannabis was my first drug. I puked my guts up the first night I smoked cannabis! I was at Nathen's house with Nathen and we all had a session. He looked after me, Nathen, always doing the running, scoring, and dealing. He was a mover. Shifting drugs between dealers and clients. Always taking some for himself! It was one way of keeping in dope lol
Then, one night, I introduced all my friends to cannabis. They all blame me for getting on drugs! Now, they are all crack heads. They will not touch the heroin though (as far as I know?) They LOVE crack though.
Myself? I ended up smoking cannabis for 15 years daily until my lungs collapsed. I just could not smoke cannabis any more. Even now - drug free - if I lit up a spliff I'd cough my guts up until I vomited. And that is not how or why I vomited the first time I took it either! That was because I was ****ed out my brains and the room was spinning too fast!
But, the only time I can smoke marijuana is when I have some crack to hand. Sure, inhaling the crack numbs the lungs enough for me to inhale cannabis. But, that is what I discovered during my latter days of drug use. The final year. That final year I did the rest of the drugs I've always wanted to do. Cocaine, heroin, and crack.
I always got my coke for free. Unless my buddy Lee wanted to do a few lines and so I scored him a bag and we split it. He was such a sponge! Always hitting me up for bags of dope. Be it coke, crack, or smack!
I'd always share my gear with him though - because he trusted me enough to let me in to this wonderful world of addiction and rehab. It was because of Lee that they changed a diagnosis of schizohprehnia that hung round my neck like a noose since the turn of the century to 'Drug induced psychosis'. They eventually realised that the drugs were ****ing my brain up. Not schizo - just a junkie who couldn't handle the drugs!
Well, all those years of abuse, use, misuse, mis-administration are behind me now.
Now? I have a slight lean towards painkillers! I love the high from pharmacuticals! Codeine, morphine, painkillers - ftw!
But, that is not a regular thing. I tend to binge out on codeine once in a blue moon - but that is about it. Now, I am more determined than ever to get a college education! Although I went to college and got an A-Level back during my teenage years - the schizophrenia label got me a free ride on drugs for 10 years or so. Never having to work - never having to do any thing at all for my self! I could have even had people in to cook and clean for me but I turned down in-house staff because I was growing cannabis at the time. Yeah, I forgot THOSE years! Since '98 I grew cannabis up until 2008. 2008 was my last year growing. I shared the harvest with a college friend of mine. He got out of his ****ing box on my home grown! He also said he enjoyed the taste of it too. I was watching him in class after having a joint together - you could see how high he was! He wasn't the only ;'victem'; of my homgrown. Another girl, of mine, an brief gf, came to stay overnight and we ****ed. Well, I often forget about this girl but she was a true 80's girl - and loved the ganja. So, we smoked buds. Then, I let her smoke some LEAF. It was the leaf she white deathed on! I rolled a big fat REEFER of PURE leaf and she just sucked it down and went to the ****ing moon! She had to lay down after that. That was some serious SKUNK leaf. Straight from the DAM! If you think the leaf was potent - you should have been there to smoke the bud! it was like ****ing cocaine!
Yeah - my homegrown has wasted many the ganja Connoisseur. lol
But, all those years are behind me. I do not need to grow any more. Although if the laws were relaxed - I'd drop out of college - and just GROW! man. I LOVE TO GROW! It's the best hobby ever! The best part is during flowering, when the buds are forming, getting sticky, and sweet. Sure, it took a lot of years to get the patience to wait 8-10 weeks for flowering to finish, I often harvested week 5-7 - but after like 8 years of ****ing up the finish, I mellowed out, man!
If any of you are interested in doing a grow - espeically in the UK - I can definitely guide you as a mentor. I've got 10 years of growing under my belt
Well, this is my news - my proclomation of the day. I am clean! LOOK HOW CLEAN I AM MA!
Haha.
Peace
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