I am sooo fucking fed up woth hospitalizations...ones tha keep you there until you meet their 'quota' and living life,,,like this. My mom has a connection with the 'Center for Caring' in Utah....and I am tepted to drop everything and just do it. This would be my 3rd IP (Eating disorder and deprression, mainly) and I am resigned to the idea of spendign 4-6 months in rehab. I have lived withg my disorder for 13 years and I know that 8 weeks in rehab isn't going to even make a dent.

I have nothing left. NOBODY. I might as well just do it, My only qualm is that treatment has not been successful in the past and I hate to waste the money on a 'Rehab Vaca'.....

so what's the root of your issues? the REAL trauma

:-/
wish i knew what to tell you.
in the same boat myself. sans the desire to go to rehab.

I hate to sound practical, god forbid, but if 8 weeks "won't make a dent" then don't do it.

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amity you had an e.d. right?
how did you get better?
maybe you could offer some helpful suggestions to perfect tonight?