so anyway i'm having a proper low. it happens. i feel like shit and i want to die

it' all so calm this time though, i just cry quietly and go on about my business.. yeah i've been crying pretty constantly for about a week now. it;s funny in like... tesco. oh my god i just don't have the energy anymore.

i think i need a doctor. but he'll just give me pills i don't want pills.

it's all so shit and it'll never not be.

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Awww Lexy, it's fucking balls to hear that you're having a hard time

Doctors and pills aren't my thing either, so I know how you feel when it comes ot that one. Fuck that.

Things will look up sooner or later though, don't worry You can always PM me if you'd like.

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my only advice... alcohol + blasting amy winehouse.

then move onto some other mans dick to distract you from the real world.

don't worry, lots of us would rather eat arsenic than have to go into grocery stores, but it's kind of something that must be done along with all that other seemingly pointless shit in life

so.. i... ALWAYS.. keep a bottle neaaarr

this sounds like a good idea, but i think i'd need to blast something else.

i'm having some issues lately and i just want to crawl in bed with a bottle of wine. it fucking sucks. i don't like pills or doctors, and the times i've tried counseling weren't pleasant. the first person i went to slowly started inserting jesus into our sessions and the second person was concerned by the fact that i'm gay and in a long-term monogamous relationship.

can't we all pitch in and buy a secluded island somewhere?

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Have you been out partying heaps? I get a comedown period like this too usually. Right now I feel like dying too. For no real reason.

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Juices like wine, like the blood in the sands.

mmmmm, did someone say dick and pills?

sorry to hear you're down lexy, it's shitty. take it easy and try to be positive and think of better times. it'll pass.

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Well, if you've got the sanity of mind and you can take some time off work and go to another country, or at least , state. Do something liike: learn rock climbing, paddle a canoe on the ocean, talk to someone you would never think of talking to.

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ignorance is no excuse for stupidity

a holiday - even a quick jaunt in the country might help?

bake cakes, or scnes or whatever - may seem retarded but theres something to be said for the satisfaction of bringing a good batch out the oven - kneading scone dough is also theraputic.

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Said Hamlet to Ophelia,
I'll draw a sketch of thee,
What kind of pencil shall I use?
2B or not 2B?

well think about this lexy.
youre obviously a lot stronger than most people. i mean you moved to a country far away from almost everyone you know by yourself. that takes some kinda something. so i guess you just need to find a way to tap into that inner strength.
i know you dont like me but take this for what its worth, and i really am being sincere.
we all go through low points, but just keep telling yourself that you wont feel the way youre feeling forever. and hold onto that as hard as you can.
you'll be alright. just give it a little time.

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Gilmore Girls / TV Shack

oh and here, watch some gilmore girls. it'll help. i promise.

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Wear the suit. Wear it well! You looked great in it...

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Time is the distance that you can't return by miles.

I escaped somehow. Let's go

actualy [sic] I have quite a blessed life if I'm honest. I have many people to love, hate few and have few money problem's [sic].... What more does a person need? Oh yeah and I have some kind of humbleness unlike you of course ^_^ ~ CarefulCarpenter

this thread distresses me. me me me.

i nearly popped in again, but i felt a bit shy or asocial as i walked up old compton street.

i think maybe ignore user InShreds' retarded advise about going outa state for a while. i learnt rock climbing yesterday, but it made me feel all drawn and tired and today i have a cold, so perhaps that's not the best thing. coming down is scary as the rope is the only thing keeping you up and the person belaying you (controlling the rope you are dangling off) is a novice same as you and they could fuck up and you could fall to your death.

you need someone to belay your brain.

anyway i made you a cup of tea

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they made soup out of my research turtles.

does it feel like it is related to anything lexy or is it just one of those dark moods that arises for no reason and then sticks around?

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Now honies play me close like butter played toast

Combine this with Kesh's tea... and that's a win.

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Maybe just listen to other people's problems. It'll distract you from yours and you'll feel like you helped somehow. I don't know. You'll be ok, that I know. And drink Kesh's tea, too.

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Who needs love when there's Southern Comfort?

Discolexy, I took the liberty to take a peek at your profile and you're a Pisces like me. If that's anything to go by (I'm not sure whether I actually believe in astrology or not), chances are you are a very strong and outgoing person one day and shy and depressed the next.

In my experience, you shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to stay in and cry. It makes it so much worse if you don't allow yourself to be that way for a while. Just take extra good care of yourself (do you have a bath?), spoil yourself a bit, find comfort in books, movies or music and you'll feel better in no time...

Sorry to hear you're feeling like shit at the moment. I do agree, look at pics of you in the suit to rescuscitate the feeling of "good times". Have kesh's cyber-cuppa as well. I also agree with what shitty weave said, I think what with you moving up here and pretty much having been a hub of activity, perhaps now that you're not as "full throttle" the enormity of the move and everything is finally catching up with you, thus leaving you feeling "blah" and depleted? (Just my theory) Hope things turn around for you and that the current ride goes "as well as can be expected", if not "better than".

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*Huggy Ragnarsson Is My Co-Pilot*

"coming up on kittyradio, an erotic thriller featuring Shannon Tweed..."

oh christ she's a pisces.

yeh, we're eternally fucked. but the insanity makes up for it.

thanks guys
joanna bought me a cinnabon.
i guess it's going to be okay.

i think i need pills for the anxietyyyyyyyy

i have radiohead and my bed. sigh

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