So the OCD has finally taken over my life to the point that I can't go out anymore to social situations without getting massive anxiety.

I was going to a therapist and a psychiatrist and she prescribed Zoloft, that motherfucking pill costs 120 dollars the fucking box. It gave some relief to the anxiety and I took it for months but the OCD thoughts never went away. And I stopped taking it because it's too expensive.

Has anyone taking pills for OCD?? Did they work?? how can I get a cure???

have you tried the exposure method? like exposng yourself to a little of your fear and then build it up?

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I was prescribed aropax for OCD. It worked for a few months but aropax is fucking hell... Now I just don't let myself do weird OCD shit and notice the signs when it is coming. Work out why and stop it.

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all zoloft does is make you fat.

try valium or xanax, liberally and wash it down with booze.

I think all the manias are increased by other issues. If you try and not let things get to you, or at least be able to tell what is ocd and how it´s affecting you, you can slowly try to fight it. The important thing is to find out what causes your tension, your need to control.

I know someone who used to really struggle with their OCD.
He said Cognitive Therapy was really helpful for him. You should look into it... it also helps with depression and a handful of other disorders.

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yeah, i heard good things about cognitive behavioural therapy for ocd.

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i had ocd before. like i broke doorknobs because of turning them to make sure they're locked. and not sleeping before 3 am because i was convinced i could die before that and 3 am onwards is safe. what cured me is not caring anymore. just telling myself fuuuuck it. whatever.

I'm going to start this.

the thing is that I don't compulsively do things, my OCD is this:

Intrusive thoughts and fears
Intrusive thoughts are unwelcome, involuntary thoughts, images or unpleasant ideas that may become obsessions, are upsetting or distressing, and can be difficult to be free of and manage.[8] Intrusive thoughts, urges, and images are of inappropriate things at inappropriate times, usually falling into three categories: inappropriate aggressive thoughts, inappropriate sexual thoughts, or blasphemous religious thoughts.[9] Most people experience these thoughts; when they are associated with OCD or depression, they may become paralyzing, anxiety-provoking, and persistent. Many people experience the type of unpleasant or unwanted thoughts that people with more troubling intrusive thoughts have, but most people are able to dismiss these thoughts.[8] When intrusive thoughts co-occur with OCD, patients are less able to ignore the unpleasant thoughts and may pay undue attention to them, causing the thoughts to become more frequent and distressing.[8]



At first I would just brush them off but since December I guess I'm at the "anxiety provoking paralyzing stage". I've literally planned to go out at night for instance, and I've had to stay at home because the thoughts get such a grab on me that I literally start feeling faint and sick to my stomach, it's difficult to breathe and I feel lightheaded too.

=(

I know everyone's different, but when I moved out of my old flat and into this one, I decided that I would just STOP obsessively checking and relocking my front door, which was a really annoying compulsion as it meant I'd get out of bed two or three times before I went to sleep to go and do it again. Maybe you just need a change in something, a new milestone under which you can draw a line and say "no more".

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I would have to change everything. I would have to die and come back as Elizabeth Taylor or a millionaire hunk.

I mean I dislike absolutely everything about me and I just can't change it all.

I do think that a boyfriend would do wonders for me, in terms of mental health and overall happiness, but that hasn't happened yet. Right now the only fulfilling thing in my life is university, I can deal with it but I don't know what will happen afterwards, I've had trouble adapting to work.

I don't know, it's weird, I've had these thoughs for ages now but never have they stopped me from doing my life. But right now I'm just parked somewhere. I don't go out anymore to clubs or anything, because of the thoughs and when I go out to any other thing I go alone because if I go with someone everything just starts, ridiculous thoughts like "omg what if I get a stomach ache and I need to go, or I get anxiety and I need to go, I don't have a car, I can't tell them to drive me home, etc etc etc" and it just takes control over me to the point were I can't even pay attention to the conversations or my surroundings because I'm just so worried. So I'm just avoiding most socializing altogether.

I know that outside factors can contribute to an OCD problem but t be honest, inspite of the bad stuff, like bad childhood and alchie dad, my life is not really bad, wich makes me think that the core of my problem must be neurological that is why I tried to get some medication but it didn't work, at least not how I needed it to work.

But I am getting cognitive theraphy, I'm just bracing myself to spend 60 dollars on it and I don't know what will happen next.

i have a feeling that doesnt happen until you achieve happiness and mental wellbeing on your own :/

i think there's only one madonna lyric i care for and it's "until i learned to love myself i was never ever loving anybody else"

but I know far crazier people than me with partners. But they are straight.

despite how normal you might think you are in comparison to them, you're actually way more incredibly fucked up

i actually mean that sincerely, i'm probably in the same predicament.

It's true... if you are depending on someone else to make you feel better then you will eventually drain the life force out of them and they will leave if they aren't completely retarded.

I don't think you have OCD either.

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy can help you change your thought process though.

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are you talking to me??

It's funny, people think about this in real life too. My best friend in the whole world knows this ASSHOLE mousy lame ass idiot, fucking garbage whos only attribute is that he is a pretty twink guy, let's call him Bern, and one day I mentoned my ocd and he goes oh, bern has ocd, he takes pills and all, poor guy. Are you sure you have ocd?? aren't you doing that as a way to get attention??

ahhh let me see, yes motherfucker because I love to to be haunted all day long by thoughts about mutilation, dismembered bodies and disfigured faces and horror situations 24/7 just so that I can get your sympathy. Because it's of course, THAT important.


Of course the truth of the matter is that because he is pretty and cute and I am ugly and unpopular, he is a poor victim of his mind and I am a drama queen. I mean what was I thinking!"!! the world will never feel sympathy for me. But I'm really not out to get it. I function with the truth, if I say I have horrible OCD, I really do have it. I don't need nor do I want anyone's fucking sympathy.

Try not to think of yourself as having a disorder. You are a person who has troubles just like everybody else and it's important that you learn to take control of your life without depending on pills. Like nogginthenog said, you should try exposing yourself to what you fear. You'll never learn how to deal with social situations unless you experience them. Of course it will be difficult and there will probably be bad experiences along the way, but that's how everybody learns. You have nothing to lose. Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and that.

I think your problem might be that you concentrate too much on the bad. You feel sorry for yourself so much that you don’t think positively. Of course it’s important to address your problems, but enveloping yourself in all this negativity is obviously going to be counter-productive. When you fall, you’re meant to pick yourself up again. That’s how we learn to be strong.