Rant about lack of motivation and feeling like shit.

Dentyne · #1 08-06-2008, 05:57 PM

Maybe KR has some answers aside from "Hang yourself".

There it goes:

I just came back to work on Monday from 2 weeks of vacations. About a month and a half ago, I sent a text to a magazine calling for short stories written by randoms. At first, I was mostly thrilled by the challenge of being able to write again, because I haven't in a long while. I did, and had to wait until July to know if my short story would be accepted or not. Back in Montreal, I got an email telling me it was not. I think I got trapped in hoping that I would be published, even though I didn't really stressed about it at first.

Now it may seem stupid, but I really feel like crap. Every work day, I pass next to a church on a road in front of which there is a huge sign saying "WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?". It annoys the hell out of me, because it reminds me that I don't have a clue.

Tonight I feel like giving up on everything I "built", may it be relationships, work, writing and little irrelevant goals as swimming 3 times a week, continuing to be vegetarian, ironing my clothes and watching movie classics. You know, little goals that you fix daily or that you want to do before you die. My roomate just told me : "but you MUST have some goals somewhere?!". I feel like crying, and most of all I feel pathetic whining about it all on KR, when many people have "real" problems.

Anyway. Would you recommend some music? Movie? Book? Slap in the face particular speed to adpot?

Oh, and I'm having my period this week.

Angel Dust · #2 08-06-2008, 07:00 PM

kick ass music that always puts you in a good mood.

best wishes.

TheEmpress · #3 08-07-2008, 06:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Dentyne

Maybe KR has some answers aside from "Hang yourself".

There it goes:

I just came back to work on Monday from 2 weeks of vacations. About a month and a half ago, I sent a text to a magazine calling for short stories written by randoms. At first, I was mostly thrilled by the challenge of being able to write again, because I haven't in a long while. I did, and had to wait until July to know if my short story would be accepted or not. Back in Montreal, I got an email telling me it was not. I think I got trapped in hoping that I would be published, even though I didn't really stressed about it at first.

Now it may seem stupid, but I really feel like crap. Every work day, I pass next to a church on a road in front of which there is a huge sign saying "WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?". It annoys the hell out of me, because it reminds me that I don't have a clue.

Tonight I feel like giving up on everything I "built", may it be relationships, work, writing and little irrelevant goals as swimming 3 times a week, continuing to be vegetarian, ironing my clothes and watching movie classics. You know, little goals that you fix daily or that you want to do before you die. My roomate just told me : "but you MUST have some goals somewhere?!". I feel like crying, and most of all I feel pathetic whining about it all on KR, when many people have "real" problems.

Anyway. Would you recommend some music? Movie? Book? Slap in the face particular speed to adpot?

Oh, and I'm having my period this week.

Just hang in there. Keep writing and try sending your story to a different magazine or other publication. Keep doing the little things like swimming, maybe add something new to your list of things you want to do. Good luck!

cheshirecat · #4 08-07-2008, 06:41 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Dentyne

Maybe KR has some answers aside from "Hang yourself".

There it goes:

I just came back to work on Monday from 2 weeks of vacations. About a month and a half ago, I sent a text to a magazine calling for short stories written by randoms. At first, I was mostly thrilled by the challenge of being able to write again, because I haven't in a long while. I did, and had to wait until July to know if my short story would be accepted or not. Back in Montreal, I got an email telling me it was not. I think I got trapped in hoping that I would be published, even though I didn't really stressed about it at first.

Now it may seem stupid, but I really feel like crap. Every work day, I pass next to a church on a road in front of which there is a huge sign saying "WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?". It annoys the hell out of me, because it reminds me that I don't have a clue.

Tonight I feel like giving up on everything I "built", may it be relationships, work, writing and little irrelevant goals as swimming 3 times a week, continuing to be vegetarian, ironing my clothes and watching movie classics. You know, little goals that you fix daily or that you want to do before you die. My roomate just told me : "but you MUST have some goals somewhere?!". I feel like crying, and most of all I feel pathetic whining about it all on KR, when many people have "real" problems.

Anyway. Would you recommend some music? Movie? Book? Slap in the face particular speed to adpot?

Oh, and I'm having my period this week.

man, i'm feeling exactly the same way. i'm in my last semester of undergrad at uni and i just don't know what the FUCK is wrong with me. i just don't want to do anything. in my lectures i don't take notes, instead i barely listen and draw stuff and/or pass notes to my friends, i don't do any reading - it's like i'm in high school again. the thought of writing another essay makes me feel physically sick. i don't know what the hell i'm going to do when i actually have to write them. and god, i can't even talk or think about the "future". i don't think i even have one. i certainly don't have any "goals". i think i'm just really goddamn sick of it all?

and like you, i just (well, like two or three weeks ago) came back from 2-3 weeks of holidays. maybe you just need more time to get settled back in? i HOPE that's the case with me.

i'm sorry i don't have any good advice but i'm in the same boat as you :/

EMMAh · #5 08-07-2008, 09:37 AM

Steal the sign and burn the shit out of it.

I feel like you do a lot of the time. Like I have no plan and I'm just watching everyone live out their idea of the perfect life.

Also, periods suck and I'm sure it's not helping with how you're feeling. I hope you're at least feeling better by the time the bitch leaves town