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Originally Posted by calalove you said it yourself right here |
Yes, thanks, but it is hard as I do not know what to do. Do I let it fly and hope for the best or to I bring it up myself?
I feel like a total mess sometimes...and what makes it harder is that I have nobody to talk to. When shit like this happens I feel like I want to go back home. I do what I do because I like to help kids, but when I need help there is nobody to help me. I have no friends/social support whatsoever. I used to read in books about "social support" and, as a foreign citizen whose first language is not English, I did not know at first what this meant. It was a term that sounded so abstract although of course, we have this concept back home as well, and it was only after I experienced what lack of social support is that I put the concept with the words together.
My family is away, my friends are in my country (although everyone went on their own path, nor am I good at keeping in touch) and I feel alone and lonely.
At work, everything and everybody is so competitive..when things like today happen, it almost feels like "what's the point?" "what's the point of overworking myself? what's the point of being away from my family? what's the point of being here if I am not happy?" it sucks, I know I'll get over it...but when something hits me, it hits me really hard. such a slap in the face.
thanks for reading