So this is becoming quite a concern for me

Ruth Price · #1 07-14-2008, 04:33 AM

I'm fairly used to living in my own world, I love to zone out completely. which is all good and fine, because life is quite boring and I don't know where I'd be without my imagination.

however I'm really noticing lately that when I attempt to return to reality, my 'delusion' mode seems to kick in with avengeance even moreso when I'm outside than when I'm locked in my room blasting music. Isn't it meant to be the opposite?

It's sort of like the banality of outside drives me even further down the rabbit hole.

It manifests in quite bizarre situations, like where i'll have one of those brief conversations with people that is answered with a lot of 'yes', 'no' and grunts. But then when they're gone i'll proceed to have a 30 minute hypothetical conversation with that person inside my head.

It feels so strange to give off the impression of being a mute retard, yet in my mind I'm incredibly charismatic.

If I wasn't on accutane I'd just get drunk all the time.

y'all know what I'm saying?

I'd get a blog, but the only place people ever replied to my entrances was on VampireFreaks.

rosieholic · #2 07-14-2008, 04:39 AM

i used to be the same (extremely recently, even) but lately, and god knows why, i've just been saying whatever and running my mouth like all those charismatic conversations that you have in your head, and believe me, that's worse.

grunts and stuff are nice. i don't like to give too much.

and lol at vampirefreaks, i still have one of them somewhere.

clotty · #3 07-14-2008, 04:40 AM

if you'd just get drunk all the time and stop taking those stupid meds, you wouldn't be worrying about retarded shit like this.

fairytale la la land 4 lyfe.

clotty · #4 07-14-2008, 04:41 AM

also you shouldn't really be leaving the house in the first place.

that is an activity best left to the feeble minded.

rosieholic · #5 07-14-2008, 04:42 AM

ohhey, i found my vampire freaks, its shameful.
SucK at Vampirefreaks.com