so i quit my job today. the reason why i quit is because when i woke up at 6 a.m. this morning a feeling of anxiety and dread filled my entire body. so bad to the point where getting out of bed and getting dressed was excruciating.
i had already missed two days because of my grandpa being in the hospital but i called up there anyways. i said look, im having an anxiety attack i dont have any meds i cant work today.
his reply was well you HAVE to or else you'll be terminated and we'll replace you.
so i told him to go ahead.
but its like i do this with every job. it was even like that with school which is why i dropped out. im fine and then all of the sudden i start getting anxiety about doing my job and going to work and not being able to just curl up in a ball all day and hide from the world. im really sick of this cycle and it worries me because im never going to make it on my own if things keep going this way. i know im not the only one in the world who has this problem but im sick of my anxiety affecting my functionality. im 23, i should be able to stand on my own two feet. and its been a complete struggle to do so.
i have a few questions though
1. in the US is it legal for an employer to threaten to fire someone over a mental disability that has both documentation through doctors and has been legally diagnosed?
2. does anyone know of any resources in the US besides ssi that help people with emotional disorders? i dont mean in the form of income, i mean in the form of treatment and medication and whatnot. i dont have insurance to see a psych or to afford any type of meds.
3. did i just do the complete and utter wrong thing? i feel like i did. i wanted to tough it out and go in so bad but when i get like that its like its not even me anymore. you cant reason with me and i cant rationalize. i feel like i failed big time because i didnt just jump over that hurdle and i told myself that when it happened (as i knew it would eventually) that i was just gonna suck it up and play through the pain. but really, i cant work for a company that cannot work with me on things that are beyond my control. isnt there some sort of law requiring them to?

and rly, i don't even care.

and rly, you dont even count you twit.

and rly rly, i don't even care.

counting on the internet.
lol.

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