I'll try to cut it short cause it's not even interesting anyway.

A few months ago I met this guy - he moved in the flat right above mine.

I crushed on him. But my life just looked like a building site at the time and I have to admit that it still does.
Even though I've been making progress, I still feel like I have a notice around my neck saying "no entry to site".

He looked kinda interested too, btw. He tried to engage in conversation every now and then. I just knew I had absolutely nothing to offer to a guy so I just did my best to show as evasive/not interested as I could.
He looked disapointed and gave up for a while. He found a gf and when he dumped her after a few months he started to hang around me again - actually, thinking back, he started to hang around me again when it started to turn out badly with the gf.
The soundproofing is really shitty in my block, that's how I know they were arguing a lot at the time.

Anyway, still thanks to the shitty soundproofing, I lately found out that he was moving soon enough. I donno exactly when or if he's moving far away or just moving to another flat down town. He didn't tell me, which is not really surprising since I've been doing my best to make him believe that I don't give a shit about him.

I know it was just "the wrong moment" to meet someone new.
I don't know him, anyway. I just feel attracted to him. Unfortunately it's the 1st time I feel attracted to someone in 8 fu*king yrs and now that I know it's going no where I have to admit that it hurts like a bitch, even though I know it's really stupid.

So I'm obviously not asking for advice there, I mean I know there's pretty much nothing I can do about it: I'm not ready for a relationship and anyway he's moving and that's it.

I just needed to get it off my chest. I hate to feel "punished" for having a messed up life and loads of problems to fix. I mean, sh*t. None of the problems I have to fix were even of my fault in the 1st place.

Anyone's been there and knows about the gross feeling I'm talking about?

i have no similar experiences to share, but i will be stupidly optimistic and say - is there no chance of talking to him and seeing if there's any way you can keep in touch? just casually?

sex him up?

Asking him -casually- where he's moving to would be the first step.

Beatrice: Sure I guess it's still a possibility, well at least as long as he's still around. But I just think it sounds unlikely to happen.
Donno if I'm being stupidly pessimistic or stupidly realistic here.
I don't think optimism is stupid, btw.

sundaydress: lol. I actually thought about that too. I mean I'm trying to put some order in my messed up life the best I can, but since it feels so annoying in the end, then why not just get back into my old habits, put on some sexy dress and go ring at his door with a bottle of champagne, using as an excuse that we have to celebrate his departure.

Wait I just remembered that I was supposed to stop acting like a weirdo.

Lauren: I will certainly be completely unable to stop myself from asking him if I run into him in the neighborhood, anyway.

lol at this thread turning as if I originally posted it in the "love & relationships" forum.

thanx guys