I really don't know how to perk myself up. I exercise on a regular basis at the gym, I eat a great balanced diet. I do drink excessivly every so often but this makes me smile. I have great mates but most of them live quite a bit away from me. I don't know what's happened to me.

I used to be on a constant high from nothing in particular. When I first started my nusring course last year my pulse ran at a permanant 125 compared to my usual 70 just cuz I was so excited for life and now I often have to force myself to get out of bed in the morning. It's just not me.

I've always gone through stages in my life of how good I feel but I can't get out of this low. It's been almost a year now and I just can't see what else I can do. I've tried meditation but the only thing that works is listening to cds and as soon as the music stops, so do i.

I'm not crying or anything. I'm just numb to everything. I feel like I'm slipping away from everyone. Any suggestions of how I can climb out of this hole?

Have you tried seeking professional help? Personally, I'd hate for you to be put on medication but for some people that is all that can help.

There are other things I suggest such as trying to do things differently each day. This could be as simple as taking a different route to work each day to watching different t.v. programmes.

are you stressed with your course? that could be causing the low.

maybe try evening primrose oil as it can help with hormones and may help the low?

I hope you feel better soon.

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It sounds like you're experiencing the come-down after the high, so there might not be any major factors as such which are causing your depression. Therefore it's natural to feel extremely confused about why you are so low. It's hard to adjust to normalcy of life after being so inexplicably happy for so long. Perhaps you need some new motivation in your life, something different, be it a hobby or a love interest or any break in your routine. You say you were at your happiest when you first started out with your nursing course. Well, your happiness could then be connected with your trying something fresh and new. Now that you're a while into this course, that initial sense of excitement and innovativeness has probably diminished somewhat. Depression can result from a routinic lifestyle, even if your routine is a good one. Regular exercise and a good diet are key to emotional stability and you shouldn't abandon either, but don't place your faith in these factors. In fact, if you are obsessing over them that could be the very reason you are depressed.

i feel like crap after i drink. if i go for at least a week without alcohol, i start to feel a lot happier. but i'm a depressive and am on a lot of medication.