This happens when the pressure has ended for me. It's like delayed reaction. I go through periods of feeling completely low for no reason whatsoever after periods of stress.

i think most people who are reasonably self aware get some sort of version of what you are going though every now and again. it doesnt help much, it's one of those shitty things you have to get through.

sometimes when everything is going well i get a feeling like i want to push the self destruct button and just make things happen, i dont know why, even if they're bad things

and violet pixie, whenever ive achieved something ive set out to do, i feel completely depressed afterwards, once it is done, i have no idea why

That's how I've been feeling for the last couple weeks.
Here I go.....
I've been on anti depressants. The dose is now too low. The stress of finals. My boyfriend broke up with me. He's a stupid cunt. New job is very extreme. Working 8 hours a day almost everyday of the week. It's retail before the holidays: HELL. My mom and dad are fighting, mainly about me, my dad walked out for a little. My little sister is upset. I havent done any xmas shopping. Parents dont like therapist and I'm getting a new one. Which in a way is good, but starting over again.

Ok. I feel better. I apologize. I've really been trying to avoid complaining too much.
Edit: Thank you pos repper. I truely appreciate it.

*hugz*

Maybe it's SAD, Black Mambo? You been feeling increasingly low recently, or is it just today?
I find that keeping productive is the key to combating depression. You gotta keep your body and your mind occupied, so as to distract you from thinking depressing things. It also results from being alone. Call up a friend or summat, remind yourself of all the people who love you.

I find that not a day goes by where I don't feel suicidally depressed for a period. I don't like to admit it (offline, at least) because I hate coming across as ungrateful. I used to think my depression absurd as I have such a great life and appreciate everything that's going for me, but I've come to consider that maybe it's inevitable as a part of balance. I also go through brief intervals of feeling elated.

Anyway I hope you feel better.

Yeah, you're probably right with the SAD thing. I usually get a bit "dark" in my mind at this time of year, but I've never really made the connection.

Turns out alcohol doesn't help. Unless throwing up while begging my boyfriend not to hate me constitutes an improvement to my mood.