I'll try to keep it brief:

about a year ago...my dr put me on paxil. as a result, i stopped drinking (because, well...i had to), started working out all the time, lost a ****-load of weight and felt pretty good about myself. Numb-ish, but good.

well, they took me off of it in january because i had a bit of a nervous breakdown. since then i have been on a myriad of drugs "trying to find the right one" cymbalta, trileptil....you name it, i have tried it.

the cymbalta made me gain back nearly half of the weight i lost, and i cant seem to get it back off again. i am drinking again, becase it is the only time that i feel happy. almost any other time, i am anxious, depressed, ultra-sensitive and i feel like i can't even handle going to work in the morning because i might literally jump out of my skin.

THE ASSHOLE PSYCHIATRIST who i am seeing refuses to put me on some sort of anti-anxiety drug because the place i go to is a dual drug treatment/psychiatry center (even tho i am not there for substance abuse) and she doesnt seem to think i need it.

So i got an appointment at another place and i think i am going to talk to them about going back on paxil. it is the only thing that ever worked for me....it kept me from drinking...i felt numb enough that i actually worked out and didn't hate it.

anyone else feel this way? i dont know. i think i will never want to go on another drug again.. arg

keep drinkinits better than those

As I was reading your post, that's what I was thinking...Go back on Paxil. It really sounds like you've been through a nightmare. I hope you can find someone who is competent to help you. I'm at the point where I no longer trust doctors very much.

you know yourself best.
do what's best for you.

see?U NEVER needed these drugs.Psychiatry is evil. U can handle these problems with vitamins,especially Vitamin B!A healthy diet and exercise and getting in touch with your own inner potential is the ****in key