Yes, the irony, coming from me, is overwhelming, but anyway.

So I go on this audio-chat server called Ventrilo and the people on there apparently do not like me for whatever reason and always make fun of me and they just WON'T stop and I'm really nice, I rarely even retort back and when I do it still goes on and on. And now they keep googling all my emails and screen names and have been dragging up personal information off old message boards dating back to when I was 14 and won't stop spouting off stuff and I'm actually trying to meet this one guy off there but he rarely comes on even though he said he would meet me within a month and im afraid of how this might affect that, and that he will be too afraid to meet me because of my past, and aside from that point, these people just won't leave me alone and it's bugging the hell out of me because I'm trying to make friends and I feel like I can't fit in anywhere. And yes they are probably reading this now, but there's nothing I can do.

So anyway..

Wow! People on Foo Fighters forum thought you were a retard, the lovely folk at KR think you're a retard with lonely virgin tourettes syndrom, and NOW the members Ventrilo don't like you either.

Take. A. Hint.

Well, considering the fact I don't use ventrilo as a forum to spill my guts like I do here, and to a brief degree, did on FF, I don't see why they should be having a problem with me.

I've done everything they've asked. I had to do multiple web-cam shows just so I wouldn't get perma-banned the first time I came there because they didn't believe I was a real girl. I am genuinely nice to these people, and don't make rude personal remarks like they seem to on a daily basis. I think they know their opinon of me matters a great deal to me and that's why they keep tearing me down. Some sort of sheer satisfaction I guess? Still, it's all too much for me.

fuck em.


if you don't get it you're not invited. why the fuck do you have to bend over backwards to prove you're good enough to intenet randoms?


that would be my advice if you were a normal person.


but seeing as you're nina. idk. go cut.

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said thanks for the insults and compliments
you'll never forget my face no more

you have really weird acceptance issues. i think you should be listening to that fat wrinkly shrink of yours instead of trying to get him to pop your cherry.