i tried to kill myself by taking a ****load of pills. all i did was hallucinate, fall down (a lot), throw up everywhere and had seizures. that was last week and im still feeling all sorts of sick. my boyfriend wants to take me to the hospital, but i dont have insurance or money and i dont think there is much they can do anyway. but the pain in my stomach is getting unbearable. i guess all i want to know is, since i didnt die that night should i really bother going to the hospital? i think its kind of a bit late to go, and it would just be really awkward. but seriously, my stomach hurts A LOT and i'd kind of like to know if i'm dying a slow painful death.

is there no way you can go to the hospital for free?
what pills did you take?can you go to the doctors about the pain in your stomach or does that cost money aswell?
do you have parents you can contact?
dont say you tried to kill youself if you dnt want to though? say you were spiked?

Depends on what you took. Somethings it takes a while to kill you. A friend told me once. You need to go get checked out.

or you could just say you accidentally took too many. I wish dirtyplotte were online to answer this, but I think they will probably hold you for 72 hours if they believe you tried to kill yourself. I'm not saying that's a bad or good thing, you may need that kind of help, but I think if I were in your position I wouldn't want to be in the hospital. But since its been a few days, maybe they won't try and hold you anyway.

I do believe you should go to the dr though.

And I don't want you to answer this here in public because it's a private thing, but I'm wondering why you would do this. You are bright, pretty, and I think you have friends (you definitely should have at least one unless your relationship with your bf has serious issues.) I also think you have good taste in music and therefore must be a very interesting person! /biased You can pm me anytime, but I really just wanted to say those things and I don't expect an answer, I know you're going through a tough time right now and sometimes I don't feel like talking when I'm in that kind of a mood. But if there's something changeable in your life that's making you so unhappy, you should change it. Easier said than done, I know, and my depression isn't really related to current things (or at least not things that I can control) so there's a chance you may not be struggling with your current environment either. But if it's your bf who is making you unhappy, break up with him. If it's your parents, move out if possible, I think you're old enough. I vaguely recall you (at least I think it was you?) questioning your sexuality and you should realize lots of people go through this and there are groups out there especially to help with that specific issue.

I also realize that all of this ^^ talk may be pointless; hopefully you're out of the really dark place right now but I just wanted to say that stuff anyways.

good luck and don't hesitate to pm.

I think you should go to the hospital and get checked out. Make sure your ok even if its been alittle while since it happened.