I was 16 when I started fucking an acid dealer for free trips. She was much older than me but she fucking loved me and said she was going to fuck me up.

We used to drop acid every week and fuck. That was when I was 16. We were into BDSM and I have the scars to prove it and so does she. In fact, I used to cheat on her and fuck other women and the fact is I used to tell her about it and she loved me so much she'd stay with me.

She was always playing mind games. I was such an innocent and swayed by her charming ways. In fact, she fucked with my head so much I hit her outside a pub when all my mates were there and since then my mates do not talk to me because I abuse women, well, we spoke since the incident only like 10 years later and since then have not spoke.

Around the age of 17 I had my first breakdown. I went insane from all the LSD. I love her and this made a long term friendship that continues to this day through a correspondance through the mail.

She was there when Curt blew his brains out. She was there when I first heard of Hole, Sebado, Sonic Youth, Nine Inch Nails, Therapy, and many other hot sounds.

I had long hair and looked sooo hot and she was this attractive, young, blonde who loved to fuck and sure we fucked all the time. She cheated on me and gave me an STD. I licked her vag minutes after her fucking another guy without protection. She was such a dirty tramp and I loved her for it.

In essence, we had an open relationship of fucking and drugs and for me the nineties were sex, drugs, and metal. I was at my peak in life but now things have changed.

Present day I am a mental patient because of drug abuse but this does allow me a benefit from the Government which buys me drugs. hen we split up my father died and I moved out into my own place and started cultivating cannabis indoors. 2008 will be my tenth year growing cannabis and I plan on doing some skunk outdoors to reminise the old skool days of smoking skunk before lessons and getting blown away when super skunk came out.

Recently, I purchased a car which, I intend to use for a year before part exchanging for an upgrade.

So even though I had bad moments in the past and present I continue smoking drugs and living my life waiting for this woman to return to me. So far, she had been with a guy seven years since I was with her which kinda pisses me off when she is supposed to be fucking me.

Im stoned, drunk, and horny for this chick. Tell me why you're mental...

Silvine, your story really touched my heart. I hope you get to bang that fucking whore one last time, stoned off your gourd. Godbless.

Same goes for you Purple Haze.

my parents.
sid and nancy.

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That's the whole trouble. You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking, somebody'll sneak up and write "Fuck you" right under your nose.” - J. D. Salinger

a spiritual being having a human experience

most recently:

random internet person says: i wish i hadnt gotten impregnated by my father.... he forced himself on me ... i came to eire seeking sanctuary......

me says: Are you for real? I hope you're lying.

random internet person says: i have never been so serious in my life..... people look at me laughing.... its not good... i have no where to live and no help

but generally i fuck my own head up all by myself being so self-absorbed.

My parents, ie: self-obsessed emotionally vacant mother, and alcoholic, abusive father.

That and a chemical imbalance.

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