Yet again.
This is the worst it's been for a very long time. I went to a music festival a couple of weeks ago and had a couple of nearly full blown panic attacks (I've been suffering from anxiety disorder for years so usually i get them under control before they get bad) & then i went out for a friends birthday on the weekend & felt like i wanted to bolt at one stage. They are getting more severe, i had an attack when i went to buy my mum a birthday present today & alcohol isn't calming me down in social situations anymore. I pretty much don't want to leave the house.

Also, i'm sinking into depression again, i feel absolutely horrible, I won't go into detail because it's all to personal.. But the problem this time is that i have no money to go to the doctors & to go back on medication, my mum has been so savage with me lately (I don't know why..) & if i ask her for money she'll skitz.
(Besides, she gets really angry at me whenever i'm sick. Like i'm a big inconvenience.)

So what the fuck do i do? Do any Aussies know of some kind of government assistance i can get to pay for the doctors/medication?

I wish i could get away from here for a while, maybe i should find a mental health retreat or some shit.

Sorry to get all on you all. Help plz?

i dont know what to tell you because i cant fix it for you. the advice i have is to make a list of things that make you feel good about yourself. and read it once per day. it wont help a lot. but it might cheer you up.

anxiety attacks are horrible to deal with though * virtual hug *

Same thing is happening with me. I feel sick thinking about meeting new people at work today and I love my job ugh.
Can't afford treatment either and refuse meds again.

I'm sooo sooo sorry about this. God, you just don't even know. I hate it when that happens. I just fought my way out of one, it was a doozy! I got so pissed because...it's a long story too, but I was determined that it was not gonna take me down again. I at least have my Zoloft though. You don't have ANYTHING at all?

Shit, I think you have to tell someone. I at least had that and I just had enough fight left in me to get up and do something.

I'm starting school on Monday. ALL OF MY CLASSES ARE ON CAMPUS! No way am I doing internet ones this time. No way. I have to get myself together and get a real life.

If you can, just hang on a little. None of what you feel is true. It's your feelings. What meds are you on usually??

Sorry to go so mental about this...but just hang in Ronette!! Dammit, I HATE hearing about this. I just know how it is. It's been fucking up my life for so long!! UGH!! PM me if ya want, or whatever.

I don't know...just hang in girlie!! I'm fighting really hard, man!!