i would consider myself a friendly and likeable person, a lot of the time.

but sometimes i just avoid being around other people, because in my mind i just think they will hate/dislike me, even before i've ever met them. i know this is silly. but i can't help but think that. for instance: i got invited to a party last week, and i was actually excited about going. but right when i was about to leave the house, i got this sense of dread, and decided to just stay home. i don't know why? this doesn't happen very often to me, but i still think it's strange. sometimes i just get a bad feeling about something even before i experience it.

anyone else ever felt this way?

All the time!

Isn't it just called shyness?

i'm not shy and i do that.
the worrying about people not liking on me is definitely not an issue. it's more that i'm not in the mood for people sometimes.

for you it sounds like a little bit of a self esteem issue?
& nothing wrong with going with your gut instinct.

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That's the whole trouble. You can't ever find a place that's nice and peaceful, because there isn't any. You may think there is, but once you get there, when you're not looking, somebody'll sneak up and write "Fuck you" right under your nose.” - J. D. Salinger

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darn it. i thoguht this thread was about well behaved people who occasionally vandalised cars and terrorised their neighbours

i avoid company a lot because often i don't like it, rather than any self esteem issues. i believe that the constant considering of what people think of you is much more than just about self esteem. even if you're happy with yourself you can still want some space from the part of your brain that processes others' regard

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hahahaaa. that would've been a more interesting thread, i agree.