[misfitcult]

Originally Posted by sugarscar

same fantasy!!!
well i also have an australian one.
so
you're not gonna fucking believe this - but my muffin was a goddamn blueberry one.
I"M NOT LYING i swear. it was pretty good.
do you know the interview i mean? oprah asks liz about her marriages - (even though she's been told by liz's people to in NO WAY ask liz about this)
and liz becomes the ice queen that she so is, and mocks oprah. and if you watch it you'll laugh and your toes will curl up and you'll be like omg FUCK YEAH liz.

hey it's a motherfucking friday! i will have a cigarette for you oli. i really don't mind - no no, that's okay, it's fine, i don't mind, really.

i youtubed to no fucking motherfucking avail
whered you try and dl this at? i WANTWANT. did oprah have her 1990s ear wings wig on? oh fck
i recorded liz's "white dimonds" commercial on my cell phone just for you but i cant figure out how to uplaod it onto my computer

biiitch smoke one for me, ill do the damn same
*flick flick* *tin foil* *flickflick*

[GlamPetals]

do you still want to quit? maybe the patch would work for you. it goes by how many cigs you smoke a day. they made me break out into a rash and flip my shit but i don't smoke enough for the patch.

the one time i seriously tried to quit, i replaced cigs with hard candy (like lifesavers) or bubble gum and when i took my break i would walk around the block instead of smoke. i also became a gym rat & went for hours on in so idk about weight gain. you can sweat out the toxicans and steamroom yourself during the initial first stage of quitting at the gym though.

the no smoking thing only lasted 6 months for me so good luck. its hard.
use your ashtrays for stamps or keys or some shit.

[misfitcult]

okay 2.3 packs to go from teh carton. i have to start weening
OH MY
im scared now.
oh man

Originally Posted by GlamPetals

the one time i seriously tried to quit, i replaced cigs with hard candy (like lifesavers) or bubble gum and when i took my break i would walk around the block instead of smoke.

im going to try that. i need to replace my cig routine with something else.

the other day i was awake for a few hours and didnt smoke to see what would happen. i started getting nervous and sticky. is that normal? crackish?

[anenome]

look at some nasty government induced pictures of nasty lungs and stuff that will help you stop ?

i love ciggies mmm

BUT

im a student nurse and i worked at this hospital for 8 weeks as part of my training and although EVERYONE in the world said to me "once you see what smoking does you will quit" and i was like "shut up" and tossed my nose. but my word getting old and being a smoker or even ex smoker is soooo not worth it. seriously. its soo cheesy to say but when you see the effects in your face day in day out i was grossed out and so i stopped buying ciggarettes.

thats my story.

however i have cheated and had the odd one quite a lot of odd ones actually. then i feel really bad and i look like this

i also lied a bit. i didnt just STOP. i went from cigs to roll ups and then my lazyness came through and slowly the roll ups went away.

hope that made sense. yes?

[misfitcult]

so i got some nicotine patches.

cigarette rehab diaries:

today i smoked 2.5 cigarettes. which is really good considering my usual.
but i smoked them while wearing the patch.?!? i had a few beers and started craving a cigarette once i was feeling buzzed. since the patch is pumping nicotine in me i shouldnt have cravings right?
i think my biggest struggle is going to be not smoking while im drinking, because for me it goes hand in hand, laverne is the drink and shirley is the smoking. but i need to break those two dyke ass bitches up.
its funny that, i find myself reaching for my pack just out of habit not thinking, and then i realize, im trying to quit.

this is hard. im cranky. i think ill go for a run even though my knee is bothering me..

[misfitcult]

dear cigarette detox diaries,

i, like many a man, fantasize about sex every 2 seconds, or something insane like that. i read that statistic somewhere. well now instead of fantasizing about sucking down some big black mandingo cock, i fantasize about sucking down some god damn cigarette smoke. well, not to that extent.
diary, im having a hard day with not smoking. yesterday i was fine, i cheated 3 times. but 3 is better than 20. and today i only had one cig, 1/2 at a time.
around 7 the urges came on strong, but id push it out of my mind and distract myself. then when i couldnt push the urge down any longer, i pulled a crackhead... i went into one of my dirty ashtrays and found the longest cigbutt i could find. wiped the filter off and sparked that shit up. i smoked it like it was a roach, inhailing deep, and holding the smoke in my lungs for as long as possible. it was goooooood, crusty but goooood.
its past 9 now and all i want to do is go to the corner store and buy a pack.
id go for a run instead but i overate at dinner and had a couple dranks.
okay okay cant think about it anymore.... ttyyl diary.

[Serge]

Originally Posted by anenome

i went from cigs to roll ups and then my lazyness came through and slowly the roll ups went away.

It's a good way to quit. I switched from Kools to Marlboro Lights and then to American Spirits. American Spirits take so long to smoke and are so hard to inhale you only bother when you really want one, and now I smoke like 2 a day. If I don't smoke in a day, I don't notice, and I never have a nic fit.

[GlamPetals]

Originally Posted by misfitcult

i, like many a man, fantasize about sex every 2 seconds, or something insane like that. i read that statistic somewhere. well now instead of fantasizing about sucking down some big black mandingo cock, i fantasize about sucking down some god damn cigarette smoke. well, not to that extent.

oral fixation. get some sugar free lollipops.

Originally Posted by misfitcult

i pulled a crackhead... i went into one of my dirty ashtrays and found the longest cigbutt i could find. wiped the filter off and sparked that shit up. i smoked it like it was a roach, inhailing deep, and holding the smoke in my lungs for as long as possible. it was goooooood, crusty but goooood.

get the ashtrays out of the house. or at least dump them all out, clean them and put something else in them. stamps, keys, paperclips, condoms?

[misfitcult]

day 5 yesterday was pretty easy. didnt have any cigarettes.

but woke up this morning jonesing like a muth. im about to go buy a pack i think. im so desperate for a smoke. i wish they sold half a packs or 3/4 a packs. im deliberating
maybe i should buy a really ghetto gross scandalous pack of cigarettes, like virginia slims or kools or some shit, so that im ashamed to smoke them, seeeeeeeee im plotting

, i reaLLY LOOK LIKE THIS RIGHT NOW.
ill give candy a try, hopeful this will work... x.bac;enc;decen cv;beac


edit:
thanks for the supportive rep but it was too late.

i relapsed.
ona box of fucking merits of all things (which, oddly enough, arent that bad). now you know i wont be taking those to the club, awright?
im going to smoke 5 cigarettes today and hate myself in the morning. 2 tomorrow. 1 the day after. then go 2 days with patches only. or something to that effect. :/

[sybsyb]

get real ghetto and go for tops or bugler
when rolling one in public, i used to get asked how long i'd been out and what i had been in for
the inconvenience of it all should help, maybe?

[Black Mambo]

Sucks that they don't sell decks of 10 there, we have them here and they're real handy for the cutting down part. Trouble for me was that I'd still blast through them in the same length of time as I'd smoke 10 out of a 20 deck, and then be left wanting for the rest of the day. Not ideal. And I felt like a 13 year old, carrying around my 10 deck.

Yeah, the patches don't really help much unless you get out of the social situations in which you usually smoke, and they do nothing for the habit side of it, which is probably more what you're up against. I remember doing patches one time, I'd make it through the day until the moment I stepped out of work, immediately rip the bitch off and buy a pack.

It's rough and I'm definitely off the wagon with no intentions of getting back on. But good luck. Really I just wanted to subscribe, although you haven't (yet) made it to the comic levels of anabitch's gorging-on-pizza diet thread. There's still time, bro. But you seem to be doing pretty good so far. They say you have to really WANT to quit and it seems like you do.

[misfitcult]

okay im going to make a proper diary entry later tonight. ive had a couple of brokengirl equivilant moments, like, smoking a joint followed by 3 newport 100s back to back. but other than that ive been pretty good.


but now im about to fail myself and buy a pack because im working tonight and need something to help me along and my body is aching. uuuuugh

[GlamPetals]

Originally Posted by misfitcult

but now im about to fail myself and buy a pack because im working tonight and need something to help me along and my body is aching. uuuuugh

NO! you know what will happen right? you'll just go in to buy one pack, for the last time, but then. it will be 2 for $10 or buy 2 get 1 free. and then you'll just keep smoking. forever. teenage suicide. don't do it.

[misfitcult]

Originally Posted by GlamPetals

NO! you know what will happen right? you'll just go in to buy one pack, for the last time, but then. it will be 2 for $10 or buy 2 get 1 free. and then you'll just keep smoking. forever. teenage suicide. don't do it.

its too late i just lit up the first one. god i feel like a junky or something.

dear diary and kr,

lets see where did i leave off? oh merits. smoked em all in 4 days. while on the patch. i dont know man. i dont know. i think i need to be all or nothing with this. but i keep cheating here and there, if im out or whatevers ill bum from a friend. i need to stop that. but sometimes its harder than other times. i didnt have a cigarette all yesterday. i dont know man.
i just bought a pack of reds. i couldnt distract myself or shake it off, and im killing my knees because ive been running almost nightly to shake off the urges. it works but i cant run every night. tonight i had to buy a pack.

i dont like failing. im getting emotional just thinking about it. the worst part of it is that i just used the last patch from my 21mg box today. i only have one other box of 21s and another box of 14 to go. its leik, do or die or whatevers.

im going to try and mentally prepare myself for cold turkey with the patches starting monday.

hopefully theres a little kid on here reading this and thinking "gosh misfitcult is having a hard time, the struggle, i wont ever start smoking ever" so that way the youth can learn from my hardship.

[thisbytes]

Misfit, good news: Go ahead and enjoy smoking for a bit more. Bad news: nicotine patches won't do shit with you. Been there, tried that, got the t-shirt. It's like drawing out the withdrawl. I'm the kind of person who would smoke in the shower if I could find a way to keep it lit. (But actually, I smoke outside and have been for a few years)

Some more good news: I started on Chantix today.
How was the first pill? Felt like I was maryjane high for awhile at first when it kicked in. (quit that along with drinking sometime back; those were easy for me.)

Still feel mentally foggy from the pill took today (And man, are they tiny), but can function just fine. You smoke normally for the first 7 days to give it a chance to build up and you start out with a 0.5mg pill per day, days 1-3. Then days 3-7 you take one in the morning then at night. From day 8 onward you take two 2mg pills daily. (Although many have said if you try to come off, definitely taper towards the end, don't stop abruptly.)
The packaging is designed to keep you on track with the beginning days since you up the dosage after the 3rd day and start the blue pills on the 8th day.

I think I can say, and mind you this is only 11 hours way early in the game, that this stuff seems to meet all the hype. It's tackling the problem in a completely different manner than all the other methods. It binds to the nicotine receptors in you brain and doesn't allow nicotine to have an influence on/bind to them anymore. So that little kick you get goes away, but at the same time you don't feel like Linda Blair strapped to the bed. That was always my problem with quitting; extreme irritability and CONSTANT yearning. Passes in a few minutes? It sure does, but comes right back seconds later for the next round so it feels ongoing til I say FUCK IT!

Having just started today, I've had a few episodes already where I felt like, meh, a cig, I could take it or leave it. I've smoked normally today with maybe a few less than usual.

The thing with Chantix is it needs time to build up and nobody is the same. Some have stated at different times, (Some three days, some 10, etc) that the Chantix will completely kick in and it just feels like a switch was thrown internally and smoking wasn't doing much for them anymore. That little 'lift' you receive just isn't there and you really don't miss it.

The instructions state to choose a quit date and go ahead and smoke 7 days prior to it. I have a feeling once I start with two pills a day, I may not even need that long, even more so when I start the 2mg pills twice a day, but we'll see.

The scrip is around $110.00 for a month's supply if you don't have medical insurance, much cheaper if you do. But if you're doing 1 1/2 packs a day, then it evens out cost wise.
Even more so when you quit.

Find a cheap doc or hit the health clinic and see if they can hook you up with a scrip. It's the same price as nicotine patches, only a lot more effective. The patches will deliver nicotine and that'll just keep you hooked on it. And as you'll discover, you won't receive that initial 'hit' you get like when you have that first cig of the day. Chantix is the same way in regards to not having that 'hit', but it also gives you a dopamine treat to keep you from going apeshit with the cravings while you body rids itself of the nicotine. You'll get them but they'll only be about 15-20% of the intensity you're experiencing now. Much more suitable.

[thisbytes]

Originally Posted by misfitcult

hopefully theres a little kid on here reading this and thinking "gosh misfitcult is having a hard time, the struggle, i wont ever start smoking ever" so that way the youth can learn from my hardship.

Good advice. Did you hear about NicVax (Nicotine Vaccination) yet? It's still in trials but will get a speedy rush through the FDA. It basically sets off from your immune system nicotine antibodies that attach to the nicotine, so that when you smoke, the nicotine molecules will be too big to reach the receptors. Kind of similar to Chantix, except Chantix fills in the receptors not allowing nicotine in.

Day two of Chantix. Smoked as usual, but it really wasn't doing jackshit. The 'hit' is definitely missing. An odd thing I also noticed: The cough has disappeared and my lungs feel more open as in not feeling winded nearly as much, yet I'm smoking about the same amount??? Can't figure that one out, but I won't complain.

The smoke is definitely bad for you, but I'm starting to wonder if the brain, drunk on nicotine, is causing a lot of that through the nervous system by restricting/tensing everything or something. Really strange. Also feels like a trickle of withdrawl is going on behind the scenes if that makes sense. Kind of like a really dull yearning that comes and goes.

I talked to an old family friend today on the phone that is about a month or so into it. When she found out I'm on the second day, she told me some stuff that's in store.
Said after a week or so you'll start to taste every single chemical in the cig and it's a definite turn off. Then when it really hits full strength, it's not much of a hassle at all. She said you just think of things like, "Oh, I used to smoke when I did this." Also said she had a real stressful day the other day and had a doc appointment. Afterwards she drove right by her regular store she got smokes at and didn't even think of it until she was already on down the road. Didn't want them anyways. It's like you forget to smoke.

Once the 'hit' is over and the nicotine is gone from the body (The part I could never make it through; just severe as fuck), it's just all habit. Once you unlearn the habit, it's all downhill.
You'll get cues and emotional triggers, but you won't get that fucking awful physical side of it kicking up your ass at the same time. Your brain is being tricked into thinking everything is fine and dandy, so it's not screaming at you like some brat constantly wanting its 'hit.'

I guess technically, I'm on day 3 now. Next pill is in 12 hours. Monday I start one white pill in the morning, one in the evening. Then Friday the blue ones start twice a day. I'd say Monday or Tuesday I'll notice a ramped-up change.
That maryjane buzz I mentioned on the first pill wasn't present on the second and I feel much less like my mind is in a fog. maybe that'll change when I up the dosage. We'll see.