I don't feel right .... I feel like no one understands me. No one is ever there for me and I'm tired of wearing happy mask. I keep telling my self that it will get better, that I will be happy some day but the hope is fading. I'm tired of meeting shallow people. It seems like I'm the only one truly interested. I feel so fucking alone. Every woman I have interest in turns away. I'm not afraid to get my heart broken again. I just wanna fall in love and be happy.

you don't have to wear a happy mask - try wearing the IT"S ALL ABOUT ME, I"M NOT ADVERSE TO SAYING FUCK YOU' mask.

all the best xxxx you WILL get through this, i know it's hard and it takes all of your strength - if there's anything i can say that might help, it would be - do whatever makes you feel a little okay.
i recommend informecials and marijuana and hot showers and sleep.

xxx

what do they tell you when you do this. is there some kind of pattern.

good advice, this is me too these days. & hey you should see all the holes i've kicked/punched/threw bottles at in my house, just do it it's a really great feeling !

no idea... last one we talked on a phone every day for 6 hours, played tennis and then she severs all contact... Logical explanation she is afraid to get involved...