makes me want to kill myself.
i seriously think its doing me damage . . . . . . if i get into uni i will be moving out in september but thats ages away
i cant handle my family they make me want to explode, like litrally . . all over the front room
when i talk to them i just have these visions of myself just blowing up and bits of flesh and lumps of me being stuck all around the room making a huge noisey mess . . . ..

do you have a good relationship with your mum?
mine is a million times better and with my brothers since mobing out.
I used to literally explode all the time living at home and break stuff.

no i have a very bad one . .shes the main reason
my dad doesnt live here
my mum her boyfirend and my brother
im the COMPLETE opposite of her? even thought people claim we are so alike, which is like the least true thing i have EVER HEARD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE im more like my dad, which is scary . . .

i've had to move back home, but no longer have a room due to lodgerness. he's a fucking zombie, up to his fucking eyballs on olanzapine and whatever the fuck other pills he lves by. needless to say, i spend most of my time outside the flat, drinking etc.

where do you sleep?
floor?